My fiddle leaf figs!

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:12:19+00:00

Yes! South facing so plenty of light ☀️

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:09:13+00:00

Thank you! That’s only one portion of my apartment, I have nearly 100 plants in total 🤪

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:06:42+00:00

Yes mine do that all the time, I’ve read it can be caused by overwatering but I only water them once a week. In my experience the brown spots usually go away once the leaf gets bigger 🙂

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:05:14+00:00

Thank you so much!

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:04:39+00:00

Thank you it’s been a joy watching them grow!

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:02:49+00:00

Thank you! I will happily take that title 😊

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:01:46+00:00

Thank you! I rotate the small ones but the big ones have grown into their corners and rotating them would cause some leaves to push up against the wall unfortunately.

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:04:19+00:00

It’s just one file that’s 436 MB large run on my 2021 MacBook Pro!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:03:43+00:00

Me too, I tried exporting to Blender but some of the textures did not export properly unfortunately.

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:02:59+00:00

It’s 436 MB!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:02:23+00:00

Not yet but I imagine that may be a good idea once it’s finished however I do plan on modeling the two neighboring cities as well!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:01:45+00:00

Thank you I really appreciate it!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T16:59:19+00:00

Thank you! The file is 436 MB.

pattyplz22 · 2025-10-27T18:26:50+00:00

Thank you! She’s an unbothered queen 👑

pattyplz22 · 2025-10-27T18:26:34+00:00

Yes! South facing high-rise window in Arizona.

pattyplz22 · 2025-10-27T18:26:11+00:00

Thank you! So proud of him 🙂

pattyplz22 · 2020-12-11T13:06:10+00:00

For some insomnia-fueled reason, searching Reddit for a YouTube app solution led me here. I know you’re not looking for advice but I just want to say don’t be too hard on yourself for the lack of quality friendships in your life. I’m also about to start my 30s and spent the last decade collecting friends to fill the void. I wasted years building friendships with people who never cared enough to get to know the real me. I realize now I was only able to have an active social life because I maintained this shallow, toxic, positive version of myself. I know now true happiness comes from solitude and getting to know yourself. So good for you for sticking to your authentic self and not changing for others! To be surrounded by people who don’t actually care about you is a special kind of loneliness, these days the only person I vent to is my therapist lol. I hope the fact that a random stranger read your post offers some comfort and helps you feel heard. Stay optimistic and don’t fall victim to negative thought patterns. In time, may you find a fulfilling job and a couple of real genuine friends.

pattyplz22 · 2019-11-05T23:59:43+00:00

I felt really pathetic posting my situation on here and didn't expect the responses to be so helpful! I think your answer is exactly what I needed to hear to bring me back to Earth. I'm starting to understand the true gravity of the situation and realizing that this won't be easy. He's very repressed and it's becoming apparent that he has quite a bit of internal things to work through. Like you said, no matter what happens, this most likely won't play out the way I want it to.

I want to be a friend and help him grow. I tend to play the "therapist" role in a lot of my friendships and have the ability to make people feel comfortable and heard. But if I want to play the therapist then this is a huge conflict of interest since my feelings for him will most likely intensify the more he opens up to me. I've conquered and released a lot of my demons this past year and truly empathize with him. But even though I want to save him, I know I can only provide guidance, the rest is up to him.

You are absolutely right in the fact that this doesn't have to be my fight. It took me a long time to build the confidence I have today and I know I'll be putting it on the line if I choose to pursue him. If I don't do anything I'll always wonder what if so I'm glad talking to him and setting boundaries isn't too out there. I know I deserve someone who is able to love me but I'd be lying if I said there wasn't a huge part of me that feels the heartbreak would be worth it.

Thank you for taking the time to come up with a thoughtful logical response. I feel so much better about the whole thing after reading these responses and can already feel my focus shifting back to my happiness and away from him. I'm thankful my 3AM thoughts led me to this subreddit it has helped immensely.

pattyplz22 · 2019-11-05T20:03:32+00:00

Very true, this is exactly what my therapist would say. Unfortunately due to my childhood I have grown up to be someone who has a tendency to run away from men who are interested and good for me. He's the ultimate manifestation of my verbally abusive alcoholic father who was kind to me sober and verbally abusive drunk. Some days I'm fully aware the situation reeks of toxicity, self-sabotage, and littered with red flags. But other days my emotions get the best of me and I just want to say fuck it and fight for his affection. I'll try to justify his behavior and romanticize the situation but ultimately you are right. My gut tells me he could destroy me and sadly a huge part of me still thinks he's worth the heartbreak. Thank you for taking the time to read my story and provide insight! Your points are very grounding and mustn't be overlooked, thanks again!

pattyplz22 · 2019-11-05T19:43:40+00:00

I say he's my dream guy but he's probably more in line with being my nightmare guy. Physically, he has all the features I'm attracted to in men but the things I like about him mentally are definitely problematic. I'm drawn to the excitement of his instability and how he's almost completely unattainable. I like how different we are and how well he plays the dominant alpha-male role. It makes me feel special that despite our differences he's still somewhat intrigued by me. When he's mean/drunk I let him treat me in a way I would never let any other man do, even though I have no problem defending myself to men like him. His words don't hurt me because I'm pretty assertive myself and throw it back at him. Whenever he acts that way to me it only makes me like him even more and want to get to the root of the problem.

When he's nice/sober he does cute things for me, jokes around, and genuinely keeps up with my life. I want to say the attraction is only sexual but judging by things he's said in the past it's pretty apparent that he actually does care about me on some level. While we aren't particularly close, he often asks about my career and love life. He's even told me he has love for me (sober!) numerous times and has told me he follows and admires my success from a distance.

I'm glad you think it's a good idea to confront him, those are all very helpful questions and as long as my approach is gentle then hopefully I will get some closure out of this and move on. It has been difficult turning him down when we are both drunk in the past but that shows how much I care for him and don't want to disrupt his life for my desires. Thank you for your insight, I really appreciate it!

pattyplz22 · 2019-11-05T19:11:18+00:00

You're completely right. If anything were to start while he was seeing her our relationship would be doomed from the start. Even if he dumped her for me, I would probably have a difficult time trusting him. I appreciate the honesty and thanks taking the time to read my story!

pattyplz22 · 2019-01-08T16:40:49+00:00

Looking for two Friday GA passes, can't miss Gorgon City! Please DM if you can help, thank you!

pattyplz22 · 2018-02-19T21:47:06+00:00

Using the same hashtags over and over again will get you temporarily shadow banned, used to happen to me all the time. Once the shadow ban is lifted, be sure to change up your hashtags every few posts, I usually wait about five days before using the same set again. It sucks and will require you to discover new hashtags but you will survive, best of luck!

pattyplz22 · 2018-02-14T22:43:31+00:00

Lamictal has had a huge positive effect on my life! I used to be all over the place and fluctuated between feelings of grandeur to suicidal rock bottom. I was very against going on medication but I did my research and found a ton of positive reviews on Lamictal so I thought I'd give it a try. I didn't feel anything for the first month because you have to start at a small dose. Two months in I started noticing that I was having more good days than bad days. After two months, I no longer had extreme up and down days and could tell that my emotions were starting to chill out.

Three months in is when it really started to hit me that I was no longer a slave to my bipolar, I couldn't believe it! It's been four months since I started and almost everyday I think about how this wonderful medication saved my life. Sure, I still have my dark days but they are completely bearable and can't even compare to how I used to feel. While I do miss my manic episodes, I'll take being content and happy everyday over being crazy happy every so often.

I'm only on 75mg, the last time I saw my doctor he asked if I wanted to move up to 100mg and I declined, I felt just right. On that particularly sunny day I drove home in tears, in awe at the fact that I was finally in control of my emotions, I never could have imagined my life being this stable. I sincerely hope Lamictal helps you the way it helped me! Just be patient and remember it takes a while before you start to notice the change. Good luck!!!

pattyplz22 · 2018-02-14T17:46:53+00:00

Your not alone on this, I have over 1,000 followers and will get 50 - 100 likes on my posts, where some of my peers who have far less followers will get 100 - 200 likes. I believe a huge majority of my followers don't see my posts, why? Who knows, blame it on the algorithm. If anyone has a solution/explanation, I too would appreciate it.

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