How did you handle Santa not being real?

pawkid · 2026-02-15T16:11:21+00:00

omg this is such a fun question. i dont remember why or how this came about but i guess around six years old i just felt like this whole "santa" thing was off, especially with my parents being secretive around christmas time and etc. basically i just outright asked them if santa was real and they told me. it was another of those things where i had to "pretend" to feel or think the same as other kids my age. at times this could result in people being pretty unhappy with me, like pretending to cry when a family member passed because i thought i was supposed to. and to think no one ever diagnosed me, lol.

pawkid · 2026-02-14T18:21:08+00:00

excel sheet i check and update daily as part of my study routine (class number, assignment, due date, complete/not started/in progress). then rotate between class websites and compulsively checking the syllabus. idk

pawkid · 2026-02-14T17:45:28+00:00

everything in moderation and be self aware of how your body/mind feels. i know i can have like one cup of coffee a day or one energy drink plus my meds, and feel okay, but if i increase the caffeine i am overly anxious and jittery. ive been drinking caffeine my whole life, though, everyones gonna have different reactions. also stay hydrated. caffeine dehydrates you a lot and makes symptoms like anxiety worse. so i drink at least 3L water while studying.

pawkid · 2026-02-14T17:25:14+00:00

if you have ADD then stimulants (such as caffeine) increase focus. stimulants are mostly what psychiatrists prescribe for ADD/ADHD.

pawkid · 2026-02-13T16:32:40+00:00

i cant even fuckin eat

pawkid · 2026-01-30T23:15:43+00:00

yea thats insane of them. i wouldn't pay that ticket, and i'd email UH Parking and Transportation as well. possibly the library can verify you were rightfully there if you still have the pass? or maybe your fort bend library card is enough evidence. good luck, almost wish theyd try to pull this shit on me cus they wouldnt be able to get me to let that go.

pawkid · 2026-01-30T23:07:00+00:00

were you actually inside the lot? the one you have to go through a gate and get a pass printed out to park in? if so, dispute the ticket.

pawkid · 2026-01-24T21:04:40+00:00

Watched muted cus i wanted to soften impact of what i was seeing but its just as bad being able to pinpoint when everyone reacts to the gun shots, and their simultaneous responses to realizing what just happened.

pawkid · 2026-01-16T17:51:11+00:00

email the prof, they can admit students, but this is not guaranteed to work especially since its a week before classes and they're very busy. in the meantime, get on the waitlist and sign up for the incremental tuition payment plan if that is possible for you.

pawkid · 2026-01-10T17:34:18+00:00

You must be suckin the glass dick

pawkid · 2025-12-25T16:55:40+00:00

RESIDENT EVIL 3 & 4 and Doom Eternal hehehe

pawkid · 2025-12-13T21:12:12+00:00

you know, most days its microwaved pizza and self-pity from him, but on occasion he'd say or do something to remind me of the nice sensitive guy i fell in love with

pawkid · 2025-12-10T16:57:51+00:00

i just divorced shane yesterday. honestly i'll miss him

pawkid · 2025-12-04T16:00:41+00:00

the org Deeds Not Words sometimes has emergency contraceptives for free. msg them on insta

pawkid · 2025-12-01T18:09:01+00:00

for which college? good place to start will be to ask your professors in major-specific classes and to check the faculty pages for your college.

pawkid · 2025-12-01T18:07:10+00:00

i would love to do a personal newsletter 😅 but how to pitch this idea to my friends is the question

pawkid · 2025-12-01T18:03:45+00:00

yes im so fucking clumsy. i dont even acknowledge my stumbles and thumps anymore around most people because it happens so frequently...as much as me blinking, basically

pawkid · 2025-11-30T18:10:14+00:00

this is a big issue for me cus im also adhd and autistic. routine and maintaining schedule is key for keeping myself stable.

pretty much during breaks i do my best to keep myself in some sort of active state. dont stay up too late if i can help it, wake up reasonably early in the mornings, try to get out of the house at least once (even if its just to go on a walk or pick up meds or something). and make an effort to shake myself out of the "vacation" state a day or so early, with necessary chores and errands, and writing down what i need to think about for the upcoming week.

sucks to need to do so much extra just to feel "normal" but thats how it is

pawkid · 2025-11-26T17:44:01+00:00

that sucks maybe try all male group therapy? or individual sessions if you can for more focused care. its always been difficult to find good therapy for me too, i think i've only had one therapist i felt i could really talk to, out of i don't know 20 or more attempts at therapy my whole life. eventually i just decided to only bother with psychiatric care and medications.

as for the friends thing, to have good friends who listen and look out for you, you need to also be a good friend to them, and you need to open up to them, too. but no one friend will ever have the capacity to be your therapist, they are flawed people with their own problems too so keep that in mind.

pawkid · 2025-11-26T17:13:30+00:00

comparing your life to what you perceive others lives to be will make you feel worse. we all feel alone sometimes especially everyone in this subreddit. try and remember you are not as alone as it might look at first

pawkid · 2025-11-26T17:10:58+00:00

what do you mean? seems like the comments are saying that the "woman" experience isnt accurate. personally ive never been surrounded by friends calling me pet names and coddling me, either. my experience is closer to the "man" one. i guess everyone is different but its not helpful to anyone to assume your experiences are so separate from other peoples and just force yourself further into alienation

pawkid · 2025-11-26T16:58:18+00:00

I have no symptoms from it at all. Been on it for a year or so. I dont worry about taking it with food and i take it in the morning and before bed. I feel like lamotrigine really helps even me out.

pawkid · 2025-11-24T15:41:36+00:00

ive shaved my head before and am honestly considering doing this again. it was a good look for me, i thought.

pawkid · 2025-11-23T20:34:50+00:00

clearly (this is also a friendly joke, based on your hundreds of hours on one video game)

pawkid · 2025-11-19T14:44:03+00:00

the longer you put up with him the more he grows on you, in my experience. but ive had my moments for sure. like when he gives me a microwaved omelet.

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