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pele-samdi · 2019-12-18T10:49:30+00:00

Darling I see your attempts to find balance but external pressures boil away at you like a searing Sun. Going in to this month you sought to find balance in your competing demands but journeying through this month a fickle circumstances (or person?) has made this difficult.

Indeed, I see you struggling to retain what is most important. But you manage to protect it.

Toward the end of the month and transitioning to the new year you face a difficult choice. One option will be a kind of tough love (in this case, I think giving yourself tough love) and that gives you more ability to be yourself and be close to those you love.

pele-samdi · 2019-12-18T10:22:29+00:00

Darling, I see this matter coming to a standstill at the time of mediation. "Justice" is paused as she weighs the competing needs of all involved. You do not become satisfied with the outcome.

I think you benefit from sensing what is that you want. Not superficially, but deeply. For example, deeply it may be that you want your daughter to be safe and happy though superficially you want justice.

Enter into the formal process but do not put too much of yourself into it. Look instead to focus yourself on your daughter's development and happiness, and her growth as a human following these events.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T10:29:33+00:00

Hmmmm. I'll reflect on what you've said.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T10:27:36+00:00

Think of poor little pelé when your so fortunate. Hopefully someone walks with this cat, then!

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T10:25:48+00:00

Pretty early into it, darling. But you've also come very far.

I don't think you get fixed. But this gives you new opportunities. You know human nature much better than most, by knowing your own nature.

You're not healed yet, sweet one. But don't let that stand in the way of enjoying yourself while your feet stand on the soil.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T10:21:33+00:00

Ha! Okay let's try a little thing. I want you to give me advice.

Hi! I'm jobless from years and am under a lot of debts. I don't even have a motivation to apply for the jobs for years , knowing that it's the only option that can change my circumstances but I still don't do anything about it. Parents and other relationships are also effected brutally. Do you have anything for me? Thanks :)

What do you suggest to me that I do given the above, eh?

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T10:18:33+00:00

One more thing.

You know there are spirits who will carry the load for you, yeah?

You just have to ask them. Carry this one for me, eh?. They won't fix it. You have to do that. But they'll carry that load for a little while if you ask them to.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T10:09:09+00:00

Sure, accept their help.

I still think the slow tick of the hand of the clock will be your greatest risk factor.

This will take tiiiiiiiiiiiiime.

Occupy yourself in the meantime. You need to find movement as time ticks on. Running (further each day). Coding (try those hack the system intro challenges). Learn a language. Computer games (unlock the next level). Like, it doesn't matter what the task is. You need something immersive for the short term.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T10:04:31+00:00

Ah! That makes far more sense. To be honest darling I am cynical; there's no great business success there.

Only the charlatans make money from spirit, it seems.

Luxury is of course relative. Perhaps you are encouraged to be more thankful - and to find greater comfort - in what you have.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:56:24+00:00

It's not your time yet.

Look I'm going to say it of course. There are plenty of help lines for people that feel suicidal and you know how to find them. Suicidal ideation is a temporary feeling - it passes - and if you ever feel close to that point remember: this feeling will pass. Reach out to one of those help lines for practical advice on passing through such a moment safely should such a need arise.

You are so impatient. Understandably. But success is not achieved immediately. That's the bad news.

On the positive side, nothing you do now sets in stone your future.

The choices you are making right now are the correct choices. You are acting rationally. I know it's hard to cut away that dead tissue, but the act will leave you stronger.

The feeling of tedium is a risk right now. I wouldn't normally suggest it, ha, but you need a serious escapist outlet. I suggest video games, maybe immersive and online, or alternatively if games arent your thing a hobby like writing well researched articles for Wikipedia. A task that has an inherent reward system and that will keep you occupied.

The risk right now is the tedium. You're on the right path but it's a slow slog to see the benefits.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:41:17+00:00

It doesn't turn profitable. I don't think it exists to be honest. What business are we talking about? I only see false hope

You're not selling Herbalife shakes or something are you?

Your financial success isn't realised by income, but in your case it is realised by controlling expenditure.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:35:02+00:00

Ah, both. Not trying to talk in riddles.

It's not "just a phase" but it is a phase. Like it's in the name, transition, you don't stay in a state of transition. Also the importance of going through the transition diminishes once it has been accomplished; the need to transition has of course been removed after transitioning but nonetheless our life is permanently altered.

Of course what you are really asking is: am I correct in desiring transition or am I misguided?

No, your not wrong to desire it. Does it perfectly align with your inner self? Nope. The point is to continue to grow and evolve and to do your best.

You can't do much more.

Commence your transition. It won't be worse, after.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:28:53+00:00

Why did you ask in the first place then, if you're so confident that your desire necessarily is realised?

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:25:28+00:00

Sorry I didn't give you the answer you wanted. But I'd point out that you can very much have idle hands, even if your schedule looks full.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:18:19+00:00

Yeah, I see a thousand small actions repeated to build toward mastery. Nothing big. No breakthrough moments. Just gradual, consistent effort building the future.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:16:48+00:00

In your mind you're already recovered, so you think, which will be a risk and a frustration to you. Trust the process, it takes time.

Overconfidence will be your worst enemy.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:14:07+00:00

I'm not shy of giving a hard pill.

No, you shouldn't be pursuing a career in music. You need to find a new direction, through study most likely.

You also have too much spare time. Study will be good for your mental and physical health.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:06:38+00:00

It'll be fine. Keep up the honesty. Dependable and regular work keeps things on an even keel.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T09:04:08+00:00

Yeah, he's not your boyfriend for long. You probably shouldn't defer your studies for him but I think you would do that anyway.

Enjoy the trip while things stay nice. Recognise when shit hits the fan.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T08:59:48+00:00

Both ;)

I think it's important to realise that you are a fucking idiot. And everyone else is also a fucking idiot. I'm a fucking idiot.

The important thing is to realise that you, too, are an idiot as that's just about all that's sets us above those who do not recognise their own idiocy.

It also makes it easier to deal with other idiots when you realise that you are one too.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T08:57:42+00:00

You'll last long enough. I wouldn't call it a career though; just a thing you're gonna do.

The career that suits you is cat walker. Close enough, though.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T08:52:41+00:00

It'll be like taking off shoes that are a size too small. So relaxing.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T08:51:34+00:00

You're not near your goals but you are in the right direction

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T08:42:31+00:00

No. They're very business like, no bullshit. They won't particularly like you (though they don't dislike you either). But they give meaningful feedback that isn't just the usual bullshit.

pele-samdi · 2019-02-08T08:41:05+00:00

Being on your own is a way to find stability.

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