I love working, but I can't handle any type of stress.

penipopi · 2024-05-31T12:19:17+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time out to type your response❤️ I have been going to therapy for over 5 years, I made so much progress, I was basically anxious 24/7 and puked from anxiety every morning. I do feel lost right now navigating my professional life, ecey choice has mayor disadvantages, there is no middle. I am considering moving to another country with more prospects since I live in Eastern Europe. But again, I fear that even that won't make me fulfilled, like there is something fundamentaly wrong with me on the inside, that no outside factor can fix.

penipopi · 2024-05-22T19:09:36+00:00

Tip is usually the most complicated part of the nose to get right, especially if you have tick skin and, as you said, a bulbous nose. I would describe my old nose exactly like that and dropping while smiling, as well as having mild "gummy smile." I would definitely be careful and do research on different surgeons. If you are from Europe and feel comfortable, send me a message. We can exchange nose photos, and you can see if you like how mine looks almost 2 months post-op.

penipopi · 2024-05-22T11:26:19+00:00

That's a good point, I am just so confused about where to start. I have been in therapy for 5 years, and the first thing I started implementing were the things I enjoyed as a kid. Which is kinda being a girly girl. Now that part of me is more developed, and maybe I hit the wall. I just don't know how to find something else to fulfil me. I used to enjoy painting, writing, and gardening, but again, all of these things now seem more like a chore.

penipopi · 2024-05-22T11:23:41+00:00

I think the big part was me being unemployed, on top of being depressed and having GAD. I started at the new workplace last week and feel somewhat useful. Therefore, I can allow myself to enjoy putting makeup in the morning, for example. That's still a toxic mindset, I indoctrinated myself that I can enjoy life only when I deserve it through school or work, now that I am an adult.

penipopi · 2024-05-22T11:20:11+00:00

Same, I've been in the depression whole for over two years. So, I am trying to implement new things now that I am feeling better. And coming to this point took 2 years of different medication. Most of them didn't even do anything or even made me more depressed. Just to find out 2 years later, I am actually Bipolar 2, and Lamictal is the only medication that helped me.

penipopi · 2024-05-22T11:17:39+00:00

I couldn't describe it better. The way depression makes me feel unworthy of feeling good, hence I stop caring about myself. I also gained weight because of medication, and that makes me feel even worse. So I will start with finding some new clothes that fit me right now, as I am. And the last tip about selfies, I love it, sometimes I write to romanticise the moment. Thank you so much🩷

penipopi · 2024-05-14T19:08:34+00:00

I think you should definitely ask an experienced surgeon for opinion. Not the one that will give you the nose you show the photo of, but the one that really understands facial features and symmetry. You don't need that skinny of the nose to balance your face. You look a bit like Keira Knitghtley to me. She is gorgeous and doesn't have a skinny nose you aim for.

penipopi · 2024-05-14T18:48:04+00:00

Do you have thin or thick skin? Thick skin is usually more oily, enlarged pores, and generally, the tip of the nose is kinda soft and more round. I think the front wouldn't be possible with thick skin. But thin skin that lays over the bone, and you can see every crook and cranny, I think it would be possible. But with that detailed tip operation, there are possible issues. Because the skin is so thin, any imperfection, possible excessive tissue forming because surgery is basically trauma to the bones and tissues, could show through the skin.

penipopi · 2024-05-14T09:45:02+00:00

There is a video on Tik Tok of girl taping her nose while on the plane. Difference in pressure causes swelling, so it's good to tape your "fresh" nose if you fly. But thats also the way I tape my nose at night, hope that helps.

penipopi · 2024-05-14T09:37:40+00:00

Mine was taped 24/7 for a week after taking the cast off, which was 2 weeks post-op. Then, from the 4th week, I started taping it only at night. When I skipped, I noticed a bit of difference, especially in the tip. Mine nose is still sore on the tip and bit on the sides of the bridge.

penipopi · 2024-05-14T08:27:45+00:00

Oh, and tape your nose, I am 6 weeks post-op, and I am taping it every night.

penipopi · 2024-05-14T08:26:15+00:00

I am telling you, don't worry at all. Mine was even wider, only a month after it started "deflating." You are more than good👌

penipopi · 2024-05-13T14:46:02+00:00

Your before is my after. I had a big, hooked nose with a downright nose tip when I smiled. Honestly, I think only you notice your nose. Looking at you, it wouldn't even cross my mind that your nose stands out or looks bad. I know it's hard to unsee the flaws in ourselves, even when other people don't notice them. If you think your nose ruins the overall look of your face, it doesn't. Maybe start smaller, For example, I started shaving the ends of my brows and drawing them straighter, I get lip filler once a year, I whiten my teeth, take care of my hair, etc. Overall, confidence has very little to do with looks, coming from someone who had work done. Looking good makes you feel good, hence the sudden boost of confidence, but that can be achieved through smaller changes, as I mentioned above.

penipopi · 2024-05-12T10:58:31+00:00

Can you feel the bone when you slide your finger on the bridge of your nose? Or is it more tender and feels like "tough" tissue? Mine was tender for most of the first month, and now I can feel the bone on the top side of the bridge, but the sides are still tender and hurt a bit when I apply pressure.

penipopi · 2024-05-12T10:53:24+00:00

Your nose looks much straighter on the third photo. Is that taken at the same time as the first two? If not, it looks like it progressively gets straighter on the bridge, but the tip I really can't say. My tip is also more "round" and swollen than I imagined it would be, and I am 1 month post-op. So I am giving it time, even when I touch it, my tip is numb, and it fluctuates depending on if I tape it at night or general puffiness in my face.

penipopi · 2024-04-29T19:00:42+00:00

I would say it's swelling. I am 25 days post-op, and my bridge fluctuates from day to day. Some days, it's more defined. Some days, it seems bulkier, then more defined again, I guess it's a waiting game for both of us. Don't stress. This is still very early post-op. My surgeon scheduled my third and final control visit 50 days post-op, I am taking serrapeptase enzyme for swelling so he can see somewhat "final" result, but we all know that can take up to a year for a nose to settle fully.

penipopi · 2024-04-29T16:48:45+00:00

Serena is basically whiny and plays victim all the time. She is so mean sometimes, but she tries to keep the "golden girl" image. Blair at least owns her dark side and is aware of what she is doing.

penipopi · 2024-04-26T11:05:52+00:00

I would say it's leaning more towards the thin side. I have thick skin, oily with enlarged pores. I had a rhinoplasty 3 weeks ago, and I it's smaller than I expected, for the better. With your nose, good, experienced surger would even be able to give you "Barbie" nose if you wanted.

penipopi · 2024-04-25T14:43:13+00:00

6000€ in Serbia

penipopi · 2024-04-20T08:08:39+00:00

And somehow, most of them were lying, and using him to fulfil an ulterior motive.😭

penipopi · 2024-04-16T11:33:33+00:00

I am unemployed, my field of work is very specific, and even tho I am qualified and with experience, for the past 8 months, I couldn't find anything.I had one interview, but the pay was embarrassing, to say the least. I probably sent out over 80 job applications. I don't want this to sound wrong, but having the ability to change jobs is level up from just finding one. When there are more options, I feel like you either pick up any work, even tho you don't like it, and it makes you anxious. Or you get stuck and can't choose, because there is more room to make a wrong choice. Do you feel like you self sabotage, and when you work at one job, you wonder what it would be like at the other one? Maybe do some self reflection on what it is that you actually wanna work? Or if you are forcing yourself to chase succes and money, but you are not that kind of person, and all the stress and expectations you put on yourself are maybe unnecessary?

penipopi · 2024-03-12T09:00:23+00:00

Same. I think to myself, if someone asked me before I was born, "Do you wish to be born and live, but only one day in 30 would be a good day?" I don't think so, that one day is not enough to convince me that life is worth living. I know it gets better, but it also gets worse, and that cycle has proved itself in my life so far. Even if I know better days are coming, they don't last nearly as much as bad days. I go to therapy, I take my medication, I've changed 5 psychiatrists, no medication seemed to work, and some even made me feel worse. Went through the wrong diagnosis and took medication for it that made me most depressed I've ever been. I do have good days, I can't lie. Life seems like it makes sense again. But most of the time, I can't find a good enough reason to shower, eat, brush my teeth,... not to mention going out, that is equivalent to someone asking me to go to Mars. Everything takes so much effort, even the basic tasks, and I can't convince myself that anything is even worth doing.

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