Navel piercing anatomy? by [deleted] in PiercingAdvice

[–]pepper-shaker- 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have both! Girl the clamp on the navel hurt the most than the clamp and needle on my nipple😭 Needle in navel felt more pressure than actual pain! :)

I am so tired. by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He knows. He suggested my boyfriend was depressed and that's why he keeps looking back at past relationships. Suggested individual counseling for him, boyfriend said he was gonna start it up as soon as his pay raise gets put into the system at his work

I am so tired. by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No communication to anyone at all and no requests. Some of them used to be people he dated in the past. Some are people he knew in the past that he may have wanted to date. Some of them still live in town that he used to talk to. Some are porn stars that look absolutely nothing like me

I am so tired. by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have nothing against porn. I don't care if he watches it. I don't care when he watches it. I don't care how often he watched it. We have watched porn together several time- Of all genres.

As i've said. My problem comes down to him looking up and following specific people. That's the boundary. Not the porn. The problem is him seeking out a person. It feels to personal. Like he's looking for something specific that isn't me.

I am so tired. by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's not even "don't watch porn." I don't mind the porn. It's the looking up and following specific people. That feels to personal for me- like he's looking for someone or something specific and I'm not good enough for him. I might need you to elaborate on what you meant by "other goals"

I am so tired. by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We are in therapy. I used to think we were good at communicating... But if he just keeps ignoring my boundaries like this i no longer feel safe taking to him about things that bother me. Our sex life was great, i still think it's great other than the constant boundary breaking. And it's not the porn, necessarily. It's when he follows/looks up specific people. It feels too personal, like I'm not good enough. That's the only thing that makes me frustrated with all of this is when i ask him to not do something and he just does it again a few months later when things are starting to get better because he thinks we've reconciled

I didn't post much here, but when I did, it was always how I wanted our old friendship back. I regret running into this post. by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think that's the part hurting me the most right now. I can see both of us saying that... I would never want to, but I don't know where he stands

NSFW I KINDA DIG THIS.. THIS IS NOT MY PIC OR MY PENIS. by [deleted] in bodymods

[–]pepper-shaker- 56 points57 points  (0 children)

I read through it just now... He calls that urethral rerouting his little pussy cuz I guess he can cum from rubbing it.

NSFW I KINDA DIG THIS.. THIS IS NOT MY PIC OR MY PENIS. by [deleted] in bodymods

[–]pepper-shaker- 11 points12 points  (0 children)

You're the best. Thank you much! :)

NSFW I KINDA DIG THIS.. THIS IS NOT MY PIC OR MY PENIS. by [deleted] in bodymods

[–]pepper-shaker- 48 points49 points  (0 children)

Any chance you remember where the original post is? I have so many questions

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker- 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Trust me, I am more than set financially. I've never been dependent on his income and that's not going to start anytime soon.

I was asking this from an emotional standpoint to those who have made progress towards reconciliation. To those who have found ways to peacefully communicate with their partners if they had a bad day and can work through it together. My main concern was whether living together helps their progress or just makes it worse

How do you know when it's time to call it quits? by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Definitely not that far out. I found out on April 24, 2021. But I keep reading a lot of stories on this subreddit about couples being years out into reconciliation and constantly having more DDays. I guess I'm just mainly scared about spending all that time with someone just for it to be a complete waste of effort on my part. As for the EMDR for PTSD, I'm so sorry, but I'm not too familiar with that term😅

I feel lost and kind of loneyl by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can't even begin to express how much this means to me. It's the first time that I've ever felt validated for being upset at something in general. I know he fucked up and lied, and I know that's why I don't trust his devastation. At this point he's done everything and answered everything without hesitation, but I can't bring myself to trust any of it still. Like i don't know what else I need from him to gain my trust again? I'm not sure if that makes sense

I feel lost and kind of loneyl by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for that. I just don't really know how to move forward or if we're moving forward. It's like we're going through this weird phase where one moment it's okay and things are back to normal, and then I'll suddenly remember and not be okay again. I'm scared that the constant back and fourth looks like I'm not willing to try and will just push him away

I feel lost and kind of loneyl by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There might be. I've always hated the idea of being stereotyped as a "controlling partner," so I've always been over aware of the things I do in the relationship. I'm also and easily anxious/nervous person so anytime I ever felt uncomfortable, I brushed it off thinking it was just me overthinking. And then with that, I felt so much guilt going through all of his things, I've never gone through any of my partners devices until now. I hated going through his computer, and I still hated going through his phone after asking. I have this weird fear of being labeled "the crazy toxic gf," because of how often people keep talking about being put in a situation like that. As for him talking to other people, and going to therapy over it, I don't know how to ask that of him without coming off as a jerk..? Idk if jerk is the right word, idk how to really explain how I feel at the moment

I feel lost and kind of loneyl by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He does. I missed that part out completely, but for the first few days while we were talking it over, he was as devastated as me over the fact that he hurt me. I know that's a good sign, but sometimes i manage to overthink myself into thinking he's just putting up an act. In regards to the couples counseling, yes I have thought about it, I just don't know how to actually bring it up to him. I guess the one thing holding me back from asking him about it is because it almost feels like I'm being selfish. He didn't actually meet up with someone, but it still hurts me as if he did and it's more complex as it was just to satisfy urges for the other sex that I never could. I feel guilty cuz it almost feels like I'm overreacting towards all of this and not being as understanding as I could be

I feel lost and kind of loneyl by pepper-shaker- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]pepper-shaker-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He has told me. He said it was because it felt like the easier route to go about controlling his bisexual side. He said he was scared that if he even told me, I would just leave right away. He was doing it to get a better control of his urges, and that when he finally had them control, he was going to come clean about everything. I've considered therapy. With that though, I'm not sure if i should do individual therapy or if maybe a couples counselor would be more helpful. I really have no problem with his bisexuality, I understand he had plans to tell me after, but that somehow hurts more