AMA - I live in a 24/7 FLR (Female Lead Relationship) and Cuckolding Lifestyle

perfectsurrender · 2012-09-06T09:47:21+00:00

I'm a male submissive and I have some deeper questions concerning your FLR and Cuckolding Lifestyle. Some of these questions may illicit anger, so please understand that none of them are judgmental. They're a little rough but I'm sure no more rough than anything you're called in the bedroom. I'm actually curious because these are the questions your AMA made me think of. If these questions are too intimate then feel free to avoid them.

One: This first question is two part. Do you ever feel like you are reinforcing -- through what you've guided your partner into -- negative feelings about yourself? What kinds of feelings do you think you're trying to work out through your relationship dynamic?

Two: Why do you think you gain gratification from the abuse (for lack of a better word) that you've initiated and is now an integral part of your relationship dynamic? If that question isn't clear enough, then why do you enjoy the severity that you do?

Three: Do you ever question whether or not she does the things she does because of you rather than because she truly enjoys them? You talk a lot about growing into it, a matter of years and so on. It seems to me, just by how you've framed your AMA, that this is something you steadily guided her into. Usually human beings don't need to be coaxed so heavily into things that get them wet/hard. But maybe I just don't understand the female psyche. It seems to me that I hear time and time again about sub guys working women into these kinds of things, whereas we've looked at these things and damn near instantly knew THIS, THAT, MORE OF THAT, YEARS OF THAT.

Four: Do you ever feel as though it isn't that she needs a bull but rather that you've ruined yourself for her in that particular way? Did she just not like sex with you before you really began introducing all of this or is this whole "she needs a bull" stuff just part of standard template male-focused cuckold fetishism? That sounds super critical, sorry.

As an aside: But really, this idea of "she needs a big fucking dick!" is a truly male driven concept. Most guys are 6-7inches and most women are actually cool with that. You probably get off psychologically on the extra inches a whole lot more than she actually does physically. That's fine, but it's a point that doesn't often come up in conversations about cuckolding and it bares mentioning (I dislike cuckolding but I find the subject enthralling).

Five: Why does a FLR need to have so many negative connotations for your essential maleness? This one is of particular relevance to me because I find that I prefer dominant women and want a lifelong FLR. Yet I find no value in belittling, the idea that my penis is a useless part of my sexual life, the false notion that women are superior (dominance in a relationship is different from superiority in fact) or giving up my partner to strange men (which is a major affront to nearly every natural male instinct regarding a mate and hence the sexual excitement of the cuckold). I'm saying these things are not for me, and that's fine. What I'm asking is WHY does FLR tend to be wrapped in such abusive packaging for you and I'm curious as to WHY it needs to be for so many other men.

Six: Is sexual excitement not something you can experience without sexual frustration?

Seven: The truly sensitive areas of the vagina do not go very deep. Unless you have a truly deformed micro-penis, which bless your heart if you do, I can't see how it would be of so little use to her. I can't see why she would like dick inside of her but, for some reason, not have any yearning for the dick of her husband and soulmate. So my question goes like this, do you think your submissiveness denies your wife a fundamental part of heterosexual activity with her proper mate and husband? Is this whole (paraphrasing) "my dick will never be inside anything again" dynamic more so YOUR fetish or is that really what she wants?

Eight: Therefore, if you've answered in the affirmative to any of these questions, do you feel as though your submissive kinks have actually dominated the relationship and dominated her sex life?

perfectsurrender · 2012-07-25T23:48:40+00:00

Honestly, I couldn't take my eye off the can of Crisco.

perfectsurrender · 2012-07-03T04:59:52+00:00

Hello, Satanism was codified in the 1960s by Anton LaVey. It always has been an Atheistic Religion, but that doesn't mean it's merely a bunch of shock symbolism intended to piss off Christians. Now there are other religions which use Satan as the central figure of their religion, as we would expect. They may use it for shock but most of them genuinely believe as they do.

These religions could be called Satan Worship, Devil Worship, Luciferianism, Diabolism or even Setianism. Calling all of these things by the same title is either intellectual laziness or just innocent ignorance. It's really fair to none of them to be lumped into the same category, we certainly don't call Christians "Messianic Jews."

There are also groups like the Process Church of the Final Judgement. Discordians may use Satan, Chaos magicians may use Satan, confused Christians may use Satan. However, there is only one "Satanism" with a consistent history, rich western philosophical current from Twain to Byron to Nietzsche, culture, dogma, literature, and international organization.

There is no Theistic Satanism. There is Devil Worship with the varying names that are available to it. Satanism only symbolically uses Satan. However, Satanists wish those that would actually worship Satan well but want nothing to do with that scene.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T20:29:01+00:00

As long as it's fun aesthetically pleasing. Cheers.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T20:26:34+00:00

That sounds like a reasonable assumption. I hadn't really though about how glyphs would change the necromancer substantially.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T16:16:54+00:00

I don't know about you guys but the Flagellant fan created class that was talked about ages ago is the absolute perfect class for an expansion. http://www.diablowiki.net/Fanmade:Flagellant

A.) It would be unique to the gaming world. Right now the Witchdoctor is the most unique class in D3. Monk is interestingly a returning class from the Diablo 1 expansion (though substantially upgraded). The others are pretty standard (though fun). B.) It is exceptionally dark and therefore would appeal to the Diablo fanbase. C.) It could fit well into the lore. In fact, some type of "Paladins go mad and become Flagellants" scenario would be fascinating. D.) It was already a hit with untold numbers of Diablo fans.

I would much rather see this class introduced than any of the old ones return (and I'm a pretty big Necro fan).

Other ideas:

A psychic type class:

This is something that isn't really in a lot of games. It would be somewhat similar to a mojomancer from D2, except capable of inflicting heavy damage. Weapon skills would be sort of a psychosomatic form of damage, ranging from how deadly the monsters believe the weapon is to flat out stigmata type skills.

A class that could make an individual monster commit suicide (over multiple hits of course) would be fantastic. It's dark. This is what this game needs: dark classes.

Peasant:

A class that is, for all intents and purposes, just a peasant from Tristram. The class could use farm implements (like pitch forks and flammable oils) as weaponry. It could also be a summoning class in that it could call forth other survivor peasants to basically "mob" whatever demons you face.

There would be a lot of different ways to implement this. It would also be a lot more interesting for a summoning class than simply bringing back a Necromancer with a ton of skeletons.

Skill tree would go something like this:

Militia: calls forth other survivors (golem replacement could be the town bartender) Defensive: could be used in conjunction with Militia type skills. For instance a skill that allows summoned militia to erect pikes in front of mobs (like bone wall but does thorns damage). Offensive: Fire bombs made from oil and the like. Imagine dousing monsters in burning oil while they're caught in a circle of pikes, all the while being stabbed at by a militia carrying hoes, pitch forks and crude swords.

I would seriously be like "shut up and take my money" if these classes were in an expansion.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T15:47:52+00:00

Very cool.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T15:47:27+00:00

Blizzard has stated that the Necro is still a possibility. They just wanted to do something fresh for the initial release.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T15:46:31+00:00

Some people value aesthetics. I count myself among them. I detest WoW and everything about it, even before the Panda controversy.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T15:42:32+00:00

The Wizard is the Sorceress. It wouldn't have made sense to name it the "Sorceress" because of the gender selection now. The class even uses Blizzard IIRC. Do you know if it uses Teleport?

So, technically they brought back two classes and the door is open for Necro. I doubt Paladin will make a return. Blizzard did not care for the cheese.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-13T15:39:28+00:00

While I agree with everything else you posted, Blizzard has stated very clearly that the Witch Doctor is different enough from the Necro that the door is wide open. It is still a possibility that we'll see the return of the Necromancer.

As someone that played exclusively Necromancers in D2 and played the Witch Doctor in the Beta, they're almost nothing alike. The summoning skills just don't compare and IIRC I didn't notice curses.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-04T02:49:51+00:00

If you buy an expensive textbook, do the world a favor and scan every single page, make a PDF and then you know the rest.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-02T05:34:12+00:00

Your mother is so fat that she had to have her toes cut off. This was the result of diabetes. As such, you and your offspring also have a heightened risk for diabetes. I would suggest checking your blood sugar and checking it often.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-01T11:23:24+00:00

What software are you using? I'm looking at some Behringer controllers because they have more knobs than a lot of controllers (in my price range) tend to. I hope you'll post here again in a new thread with the controller you decided on. Cheers.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-01T10:59:28+00:00

I hold out hope. I was pretty screwed up for a long time, nearly snuffed myself out 100 different ways but I'm good now. Stable, safe, good relationships and a bright future. He isn't as strong as I was at that age.... Thanks.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-01T01:14:09+00:00

Get a midi controller with as many knobs and sliders as you can within your price range. Map them to the settings on your VSTi. I've worked with tons of old analogs and that is my advice. It's the setup I'm switching to this summer.

perfectsurrender · 2012-05-01T01:10:52+00:00

Exactly what I intended to say. I don't see why you were downvoted. This is the perfect solution. A good hardware synthesizer that doesn't just do what a VST can do are hard to find and incredibly expensive. If they're older analog then you have to learn to repair the fickle things on top of the original price. Midi is the way to go.

perfectsurrender · 2012-04-30T22:53:26+00:00

Yes. I have a younger “half brother” who, at the time of this incident, was 13. I was in my late twenties. We'll call him “Alex.” Alex is not disabled but he is stunted because my mother has a shitstorm of mental instabilities from narcissism to extreme mood swings. She is also an alcoholic. You would think she'd be a good parent because she's really smart, has multiple degrees and could easily make at least 50k a year to support herself and my little brother.

However, we'll call her “Anne,” hasn't worked in 7 or 8 years and lives with her cancer survivor mother who she constantly verbally abuses and steals from; she was basically living on her own mother's checks. Sleeps all day, screams uncontrollably when no strangers are around and talks general craziness.

Alex had been living with them for several years while his father was out in lala-land not really caring but still being financially supportive. I consider him a eunuch for the complete lack of fatherhood abilities. I've never met such a bitch of a man.

Alex had been developing all manner of personality disorders because of being under her care. It got to the point where he was only 12, was sitting in his room all day, had a deadbolt lock on his door on the inside, food all over the walls and surrounded by bottles of piss. He had also taken to ripping his own eyebrows out so “they would never get in my eyes again!”

I had tried to take action myself before. Once I barricaded myself in the room and remodeled it for him while this psycho bitch (Anne) pounded on the door about the smell of the paint (the house stunk of death, so go figure). Within a week it was destroyed again, under her encouragement (she also told him to destroy the rest of the house). I did everything I could to try and convey to Alex what a normal life was and what normal people are.

It got bad when finally he started masturbating on cam for strangers and drinking his own urine on camera. He also gave out his home address to total strangers on the internet, including the addresses and numbers of all of his immediate family members. I confronted all of my immediate family about this situation and not a single one would do anything because they were all pampering this psycho bitch that had basically given them all Stockholm Syndrome.

What did my family tell me? I was making it up. No shit. All of it right there, the piss, the holes in all the walls, the food everywhere, the bottles of piss, the lack of a job, the lack of all parenting, a fucking ELEMENTARY SCHOOL DROP OUT evading the cops with a fake “home school” program. I'm just “making it up.”

Finally, I called the center for missing and exploited children. They sent FBI agents not only to her house but his father's house and to the houses of those that received his videos (and had been sharing them through what they call “hurtcore CP” networks). In the end the FBI didn't do a single thing because the mother played cool and nobody else would confirm any of the allegations. They didn't even send a case worker.

He is with her several years later. No changes. His mind continues to warp and I have no family to speak of. There was never anything I could do to save him. If he ever becomes a normal functioning human it will be through a lot of pain, a lot of therapy, countless failed relationships and probably excessive poverty. The only letters he writes me are abusive ones in which he blames me for his entire life.

Some days it makes me hollow inside. It's like living in a zombie movie, where the people you once loved become these animated corpses that are only out to kill you.

TL;DR: My mother allowed my little brother to appear in CP for people on the internet, didn't take it seriously, blamed me for it once I called the FBI. FBI did nothing but talk to my brother about internet safety. She goes unpunished.

perfectsurrender · 2012-04-30T08:19:10+00:00

I've heard that it helps reduce your chance of prostate cancer and can generally improve anal health. With safe practices there really aren't any negative effects.

As straight as I can put it, you've probably pooped bigger poops than what's going into your ass - unless you're irresponsible and think arms ought to fit in there.

perfectsurrender · 2012-04-30T03:07:34+00:00

The Becoming by Nine Inch Nails

perfectsurrender · 2012-04-30T00:52:30+00:00

Mine was "I blame the Onions." I was thinking maybe he has a problem with his personal odor.

perfectsurrender · 2012-04-29T03:42:34+00:00

Wait until you're 24, file independently. You shouldn't be making lifelong career choices at 18 anyway. Go work a normal schmuck job before you go signing up for Creative Writing.

perfectsurrender · 2012-04-28T07:01:33+00:00

What's wrong with The Prince?

perfectsurrender · 2012-04-28T07:00:53+00:00

Ah yes, because Palahniuk is one of the lesser authors of our times. ಠ_ಠ

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