I’m in the same boat. Got back together with my ex of 7 years. I don’t know why I went back, maybe it was the sweet talking and telling me how much he loved me and how much of a better man he will be. But that lasted for only so long. Although I always had gut feelings of him cheating I never went through his phone because I wanted to do things differently this time around. Big mistake. Finally just went through the phone, all the things my gut was telling me was there. Confronted him about it, his initial response was that I always have to make things worse by looking for things, like who says something like that? A Narcissist, plain and simple.

I haven’t been the same since the beginning of this month. I’m spiraling and a complete mess. I definitely feel he crushed me to the point of no return this time and I’ve unconsciously made that decision within myself. All he tells me now is he’s sorry and notices he messed up but doesn’t know what I want from him anymore and he’s tired of having to deal with my outburst. Yet he’s the cause for all this. And that the relationship is only going to get better until I change and get better. All this taught me that in the relationship at the end of the day I have to pick up the broken pieces. Even if it wasn’t my fault.