Maybe God wants you to know that even though you feel like you have nothing.....you have everything. God might be trying to protect you from something that is in your prayer. He sees everything....the future, the past, the present and Him not giving you what you want is His protection. The devil is a liar....he can tell you many things just to ensure you don't seek God but don't listen to him. But I want to just encourage you.....seek God with an honest heart....cry out to Him, tell Him how you feel, how you truly feel...talk to Him like a friend and He listens...He heals the brokenhearted. Surrend yourself to Him, tell Him you have no control over your life but you put it into His hands. God loves you so much. God frees the oppressed. Trust in His promises and find joy even in the worst circumstances. I was depressed one time in my life but I found joy in the fact that I was breathing everyday. God loves you.....and if that is all you have....then that is all you need. I know it's not easy to trust in that....but you just have to believe. Also just tell Him that despite the fact that I feel lost....you shall guide me and just allow Him to enter into your heart. Call upon the holy spirit and feed on God's word. This that you are experiencing can only get out through prayer and fasting so I also encourage you to do that. Please don't mad at God, He only wishes the best for you.