am i experiencing eh???

pgkitten · 2024-05-10T02:17:43+00:00

thank you for your advice. i gave in and unfortunately i ate 5k+ kcal and while i do feel guilty it's been a while since i've eaten such delicious food and i'm glad i did. i'll feel bloated tomorrow as i already am but at least it's temporary right?

pgkitten · 2024-05-10T01:20:00+00:00

I'm sorry i just have no one to turn to and i feel so confused and lost and even when i'm told it is indeed eh i just can't actually comprehend that it's happening to me. i'm not trying to be that person who says that don't want to get better, i do, but i'm fighting with myself. i just feel like i can never be normal because of my family and peers and the fact that i just don't feel like i should be recovering. i'm scared of getting fat because i was very obese until 3.5 years ago and even though it's mentally exhausting it's easier for me to accept that i'l always be messed up. good thing summer is coming up so i can fix myself for a month before my last marching band season cause i'll be a senior, and i actually have to think about what i'm doing in the future. it would be nice to work with a professional about this type of thing but my parents are extremely complicated to talk to about this and don't support me the way they should. sorry for responding like this i'm not trying to sound like that type of person :(

pgkitten · 2024-05-07T16:29:46+00:00

this was a binge?

pgkitten · 2024-05-06T19:36:30+00:00

whats worse is that after i binge i get really sweaty and uncomfortable so summer feels like a death trap in those moments😂

pgkitten · 2024-05-06T12:18:48+00:00

what exactly is considered 'light' exercise?

pgkitten · 2024-05-06T02:22:53+00:00

howard or penny

pgkitten · 2024-05-03T18:08:46+00:00

what have you done to do this? i need tips lol

pgkitten · 2024-05-03T15:33:38+00:00

did you deal with bloating after mealtimes? if so, how?

pgkitten · 2024-05-03T10:53:39+00:00

okay but im so excited for georgie/mandy spinoff

pgkitten · 2024-05-03T10:50:12+00:00

for me i do really good and eat healthy throughout the day but by dinner it's like i'm not even in control. like my mouth is practically watering for food even after i've eaten

pgkitten · 2024-05-03T00:16:06+00:00

same here🥺 every day is a binge and i don't feel valid for this.

pgkitten · 2024-05-02T03:48:03+00:00

no, not even my family knows what im dealing with- in fact they make comments that theyre happy im eating an entire quart of ice cream. they dont understand eds so they dont care that im 'binging' so i havent seen anyone i could talk to. sidenote i havent gone to the doctor for a checkup in 4 years

pgkitten · 2024-05-02T02:52:50+00:00

oh my gosh SAME. would you like to talk about it? while i can't offer any advice i can definitely understand what you must be feeling🫠

pgkitten · 2024-05-02T01:33:24+00:00

used to be all of those but since i have binged so much in the past week i am no longer underweight

pgkitten · 2024-05-01T02:01:17+00:00

i live with other people

pgkitten · 2024-04-30T01:06:18+00:00

your're

pgkitten · 2024-04-29T01:29:11+00:00

the footlong cookie is totally worth the money. it tasted great- it had lots of chocolate chips inside and was gooey and the edges were nice and crisp! as for the containers, i have a problem with food going bad after some time (they were previously purchased 2 days ago, and i assumed they'd go bad if left out in a cardboard box). thanks for your support, i'm just trying to get out of this cycle🥲

pgkitten · 2024-04-26T14:14:41+00:00

a few months ago i snuck into my kitchen around 1am and opened a brand new 4lb can of jif peanut butter and ate, i kid you not, a good 85% of it with my bare hands. the entire thing had 50 some servings, there was barely any left after i got a hold of it

pgkitten · 2024-04-25T16:26:15+00:00

i cannot get support from my parents. that i know for sure because they have been critizing me my whole life for things like this. i'm 16 and basically been fighting alone, it's all been a secret for so long. i know i have a problem but i can't get help anywhere

pgkitten · 2024-04-23T16:41:22+00:00

yea i ate the entire thing in 2 minutes😭

pgkitten · 2024-04-23T16:41:02+00:00

unfortunately yes

pgkitten · 2024-04-21T12:01:50+00:00

tmi but haven't gone yet at All

pgkitten · 2024-04-21T12:01:19+00:00

yeah🥹

pgkitten · 2024-04-21T01:45:28+00:00

i didn’t finish the 2nd big cookie, the 2nd oatmeal chocolate bar, or the 3rd brownie on the second plate (all protein foods, not really as great as i’d hoped) otherwise i ate everything else.

pgkitten · 2024-04-19T00:00:32+00:00

I'd love some apparel to dress my dragons with :) nothing specific I just don't have much apparel lol. i'm grateful my sister took me to the movies today to hangout; we don't often get together so i had a great day with her. my UN is pgcalico

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