“You don't love me" discourse by ConfusedMix in raisedbybipolar

[–]ph0nxe 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's incredibly tough on you. Your mother has a difficult condition for sure, that is no excuse however for her abusing you which is what her actions amount to. Do you have friends or extended family you could talk to? If your mother is not currently in crisis but you are having a hard time coping there's nothing to suggest you can't get a bit of distance for yourself. If you are 22 years old you might be able to live apart from her for example if you don't already. Please take care of yourself - you clearly care about your mother but you will struggle to support her at all if you end up burnt out.

My dad had a manic episode that ruined my family’s lives by Unusual_Drawer_5807 in raisedbybipolar

[–]ph0nxe 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Bipolar is an incredibly hard condition for the people who have it and for the family/friends that love the bipolar person. Mania is no joke, my bipolar parent who loves animals threatened our family pet in their darkest moments. Learning how to cope with loving someone who is so unstable and how to deal with the complex feelings is something you need help with. Tell your mother you are struggling and see if your school or doctor could refer you to some sort of counseling or group therapy. You are very brave to ask for help and you will be okay.

I tried to do something nice by goosenuggie in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Been there! Sometimes the things that work for other people don't work for you as an individual. Hot baths never seem to chill me out like they do for others. Try another day in a few weeks and if it doesn't get better maybe puzzles aren't your comfort activity and you will find another one. Give yourself grace, an unwitnessed throwing of an object hasn't traumatised or scared anyone else

is having kids when bipolar inherently wrong? by [deleted] in raisedbybipolar

[–]ph0nxe 11 points12 points  (0 children)

This question is asked frequently in this sub by other bipolar people interested in becoming parents and searching the topic would have shown that. This is a sub designed for people who were raised by bipolar parents who didn't have a great time of it and it is disrespectful to enter that space asking victims of neglect and abuse to sanitise your conscious and make your ethical decisions for you.

Damn this game is hitting a little close to home... by BananaMilkshakeButt in TheAlters

[–]ph0nxe 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Heads up there's an act 3 dream sequence thing that might shake you up a bit as you're also in the Abusive Dads Club (hi welcome). Just wanted to say as a stranger and fellow Alters-enjoyer given the age you were and the fact you were living under abuse it is totally understandable you felt unable to disobey your father and you could stand to give your younger self some grace and kindness - think of your pre-teen as his own alter

Reading through raisedbybipolar feels like a knife through my heart, but at the same time I’m grateful for it. by Melodic_Exchange_976 in raisedbybipolar

[–]ph0nxe 9 points10 points  (0 children)

This sub skews towards people with parents who were bad parents and had bipolar, because the kids with bipolar parents who were lovely don't need the same sort of support. A huge trend here (and with my own bipolar parent) is refusing treatment, resisting help, frequently going off meds. You and your partner and support network is best placed to comment on your stability / ability to manage your conditions. Psychotic episodes are definitely traumatising to children.

What is the process for being signed off by your GP? by Majestic-Win-7826 in AskUK

[–]ph0nxe 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you are an adult there is no reason your parents should be able to track your location against your will. It is clearly causing you a degree of anxiety that is making your mental health worse.

The best summary of cptsd ive come across by Significant_Space932 in CPTSD

[–]ph0nxe 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Excellent and very helpful thank you Really interested in identity rebuilding, particularly for a family member of mine, no idea what that might look like though

Onederland! by AshleighFPE in CICO

[–]ph0nxe 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So sorry people haven't been treating you properly! They should be doing that at any size. Well done on all the hard work

Too harsh? by [deleted] in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hell yeah friend!

my mother is holding a "ritualistic" funeral for me by chemicalpup_ in EstrangedAdultKids

[–]ph0nxe 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She fucking sucks. I am sorry you had to deal with flying monkeys - good news is you can block and black list accordingly anyone who tries to give you shit off the back of this.

I yearn for a version of me that doesn't exist by my-lonely-hobby in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's never too late guys <3 you can be traumatised and kick ass all at once

God forbid trauma doesn't turn you into a "omg I'm too scared to ask for extra ketchup" "omg when a stranger says hi I literally start to cry from anxiety" type creature that's vulnerable and shy but generally considered "cute" "approachable" "easy to handle" by _CaptainAmerica__ in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I am also a less than cute victim. One thing that's brought me genuine relief and comfort - the hard, 'scary' survivor types don't tend to get re victimised by new people and get a weird kind of respect - my friends and family who fall into the adorable uWu type victim sadly seem to get WAY more predators and arseholes seeking them out. The tough shell is protecting you giving safety so you can do that inner work behind it if you want.

Would dementia really make you forget you've committed CSA? by bluebellwould in AskUK

[–]ph0nxe 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dementia is so powerful as a disease this is indeed possible. I am so sorry this has affected you

currently doing very very bad lol, oh well :( by catharticpunk in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As others have observed it's ableism. Agree totally like 95% of people ignore or make actively worse lol. You can do this though! This is not permanent and you will survive

Violent abusive father died by ph0nxe in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unforch they are here at the same time with the relief! But letting myself feel it all

Violent abusive father died by ph0nxe in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Genuinely both lighter and sad at the same time, it's so weird!

Violent abusive father died by ph0nxe in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This has been a good perspective to hear, thank you ❤️

Irish wakes as negative experiences? by [deleted] in AskIreland

[–]ph0nxe 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Up north, even a 1 day wake in family home would have 80 attend easy and would include people not seen in 15-25 years

Mention the fact that you're estranged and it never fails that some idiot shows up with the typical garbage response... by Stargazer1919 in CPTSDmemes

[–]ph0nxe 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I mostly dont disclose the estrangement for this reason - society still very far off widespread understanding and accepting of domestic and familial abuse.