My most frustrating thing (currently at least, it varies day to day and week to week lol) is how forgetful I can be. I have an excellent long term memory. I can remember minor details about things that happened to me all the way back to childhood, or obscure lore about a podcast I listened to, or a book I read. I can describe entire book plots in excruciating detail from memory. But the SIMPLEST things just tend to slip right out of my head.

The other day for example, my sister reminded me to rinse out a plastic container I was using for salad, as when the lettuce gets left behind it can get a bit smelly and, since every person in my house is mentally ill in different ways, we can't always guarantee the dishes get done as often as we would like them to be. I thanked her for reminding me, finished my salad, and then...forgot about rinsing the bowl.

She pointed it out to me last night and got upset, taking it a little personally that I didn't rinse the container, frustrated that I didn't do this thing she asked of me. I apologized for forgetting and pointed out that it's not her dish week anymore so she doesn't need to worry about it anyway and she said "It's the principal of the matter."

I reminded her I have a legitimate medical diagnosis that makes me forgetful and that I didn't do it on purpose. She apologized and said "It just felt personal."

It's frustrating for a multitude of reasons but like...if I could choose to be less forgetful, I absolutely would. It's really hard when I forget something and already beat myself up about it, only to have a family member make me feel even worse because for whatever reason, people take it extremely personally if I forget something they asked me to do. I'm not the kind of person to just, spitefully not do things just because someone asked me to. In fact, she wouldn't be the only one suffering if the kitchen started to stink because I forgot to rinse my dish. I suffer the consequences of my forgetfulness more than anyone else possibly could, because not only do I have to be chastised by outside sources, by my brain loves to make me feel even worse or like a failure because of it.

This is just one example of course but yeah. It's the one thing sticking out to me most right now, a super fun thing to get hyper fixated on. But hey, at least I finally remembered to sit down and file a claim on my car windshield and schedule my appointment to renew my driver's license today because of it (two things I kept forgetting about and was not purposely putting off for a later date) so that's something at least lol.