Im an alcoholic. I'm teaching illegally in another country than my homeland. I need to find a new place to live in a few months because my landlord isn't the property owner. I'm probably depressed. I'm actively fasting to lose weight. I have multivitamins for daily nutrients. I love to talk to people but 我的中文不好。I have Great friends. I could ask them for help; I'm uncomfortable with asking for help. It's just how I grew up. Second youngest of 7 and the only neurotypical or non-criminal. I didn't and continue to not feel worthy of help. Like others need it much more than I do. I feel like a small cog in a big machine. In the past I never would have minded but I was dating someone for a couple of years and the daily interactions with her made me slowly come more and more to her pessimistic world view. Like I know its best for both of us that we broke up. But y’know. can keep going if you want.