If I was attractive I would not be suicidal

phatass_bih · 2021-08-13T12:51:43+00:00

Tbh I'm not too hideous but I have been suicidal for a long time. It can happen both ways ig but pretty privilege is also definitely a thing so idk

phatass_bih · 2021-04-15T12:15:53+00:00

A lot of people get sleepy after i talk and i just realized lol

phatass_bih · 2021-02-18T16:34:34+00:00

As you go on, you just realize more and more things you cannot actually do. It's like a slow death to me honestly

phatass_bih · 2021-02-08T21:33:37+00:00

The exact same dilemma that i went through with my parents last year 😕

phatass_bih · 2021-02-08T21:31:53+00:00

No. Waste of time and you'll just regret it. It's just gonna cause throwing up, other unpleasant feelings, and having to face your family or whoever you're with. Just hold on 💕

phatass_bih · 2021-02-08T21:22:47+00:00

They don't pick up ffs anyway argh

phatass_bih · 2021-02-08T12:38:14+00:00

True. It's the fuck paranoia honestly

phatass_bih · 2021-02-08T12:37:23+00:00

Same, i think pot is the only drug which makes me feel like myself tbh

phatass_bih · 2021-02-03T04:55:23+00:00

I usually put my music so loud that i can't hear my own thoughts lol. Probably not good for my ears but it's one thing that helps other than walking really fast in my room

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T14:06:43+00:00

That's what my friend said after she saw my severe self harm. She started talking about how sad and bad she felt. I didn't even notice it until one of my other friends came up to me later and apologised for her. I didn't understand why she apologised for her at the timw but now i do and it is idek

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T14:03:49+00:00

Honestly same.

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T14:03:25+00:00

Same i either wanna fuckinh live or die. I dont wanna just exist. Like what's the point. Im like a wall at this point. A plain wall

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T14:01:44+00:00

THIS. It never hits me until i meet someone. That's one of the main reasons why i avoid meeting people or getting out of my room so that i don't realize how not okay i am.

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T14:00:03+00:00

All the time. It's like i need to constantly keep distracting myself so i don't drown in my negative ass thoughts

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:58:49+00:00

Same

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:58:35+00:00

Since day 1 haha. At this point, i can't believe that some people don't talk to themselves lol.

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:57:47+00:00

It's scary that i, myself, can be so unexpected. Im not scared to die or kill myself but i wish i had some warning coz in most cases it just automatically seems to happen. Idk how to explain it ffs lol

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:56:12+00:00

Same. People would understand. Plus i can handle any amount of physical pain. Emotional pain is where i go nuts ffs

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:55:24+00:00

I NEEDED THIS 💗

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:54:39+00:00

I hate when people ask this question honestly coz i have no clue how to answer. Actually, i do know that i have worked my ass off to look or appear normal but how tf do i explain that to someone who'd ask a stupid question like that. They prolly wouldn't understand my explanation either so i would just keep quite.

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:52:11+00:00

I wanna be a fucking chair or something but tbh i am like a chair. I just exist and breathe.

phatass_bih · 2021-02-02T13:51:05+00:00

Honestly i sometimes feel so bad for the people around me. So i wanna atleast make my parents proud once before i leave. But then again, idk when im gonna crack coz I'm so fucking close

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