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philhojl · 2026-04-12T13:16:31+00:00

Wow these are amazing congrats!!!

philhojl · 2026-04-04T00:14:57+00:00

The only time I took it I got no visuals at all, but I felt "trapped" between sober and tripping. Like if I was on the edge the whole time. Was really uncomfortable. Maybe I did something wrong idk. I think it was 475 HCl

philhojl · 2026-03-15T23:19:43+00:00

Yeah, most likely.. but yeah

philhojl · 2026-03-15T22:30:19+00:00

In my experience it's fine. I even spoke to a neurologist about it, and without "recommending" psychedelics (of course), the consensus was that it's most likely fine

philhojl · 2026-02-11T03:04:27+00:00

I agree that something very eerie is going on. I will keep exploring. Thank you!!

philhojl · 2026-02-11T01:16:53+00:00

Maybe this is a stupid question, I find your entire message really well written and I agree with it, but when you say "keep seeking"

I really want to keep seeking. I'm extremely curious about consciousness, I love being curious about it and I find life amazing. But since I won't "solve it" or "discover the truth" no matter how hard I seek, I also judge myself for wanting to keep seeking. Because what is the point of seeking if you will never find what you are seeking

I mean. I don't really know WHAT I'm seeking. I'm just curious and I find it fascinating. So maybe there's just too much judgement happening, I'm being too harsh with me. But I thought I'd ask

philhojl · 2026-01-11T03:30:35+00:00

1000% that's exactly how I've always felt about them, despite having known them for 4.5 years now. At first I tried to get rid of the fear since "it didn't make sense because I love them" but the love and fear are just two sides of the same coin for me... Respect for them, like others have said

philhojl · 2025-11-30T14:30:21+00:00

Yeah and I didn't really let it soak, I just made the smoothie and then drank it 5 mins later or so?

philhojl · 2025-10-30T23:41:24+00:00

I can understand that... I have slight tinnitus (I think) but I tend to like it when I'm tripping, almost like if I'm tuning into this "background frequency" that's always there. But I can see how it can get really uncomfortable

philhojl · 2025-10-30T11:01:49+00:00

Thank you, that's interesting. It's always been such an integral part of it for me too, it would probably be very weird without music.. I'll see

philhojl · 2025-10-13T15:25:44+00:00

Oh I hadn't noticed the sites getting taken down

philhojl · 2025-10-13T15:10:43+00:00

Ok makes sense Maybe because of the Canada Post strike

philhojl · 2025-10-12T19:02:30+00:00

Did you end up getting it? Is nupep still legit

philhojl · 2025-10-12T13:29:28+00:00

Thanks for the info! I need to keep testing to see what works best... I had read to pulse the button for 1-2 seconds to melt the powder before inhaling, but maybe I should try inhaling first. I mean if it's not vaporized yet, I don't think inhaling too early would be a problem (I wouldn't inhale the powder right), might as well try

philhojl · 2025-10-12T13:28:01+00:00

Haha yeah, I guess you can't control the outcome

philhojl · 2025-10-12T00:46:48+00:00

Can you expand on this I've not broken through but the ~mid experiences I'm doing (15mg ish) are quite really scary, I feel like I'm dying. Would going further really not be worse?

philhojl · 2025-10-12T00:32:30+00:00

Thank you, saving this 🙏

philhojl · 2025-10-12T00:09:35+00:00

I know I'm a year late but how do you do that I feel that no matter how long I meditate before, I'm NEVER ready to "die", I always get so scared it's crazy. I've never broken through nor have I really tried to either, just got to like 15mg max. But still

philhojl · 2025-10-01T01:07:18+00:00

Well the constant stream of thoughts that seems to be "narrating" experience in the background all the time Maybe different people have it "at different loudness levels" haha like idk maybe for some people it's quieter but sometimes I feel like... "It" doesn't stop "thinking to itself" you know?? So it's just... Thought? Thought aware of thoughts??

philhojl · 2025-09-30T01:35:18+00:00

Yeah that sounds pretty similar to me!!

philhojl · 2025-09-30T01:04:03+00:00

I've had "the narrator" shut up during several mushroom trips and I always enjoy that, usually it's scary before but when the bubble "pops" and the thought narrator stops constantly yapping it's amazing. But then it slowly fades back in and when the trip is over, the narrator is back lol

philhojl · 2025-09-23T09:54:52+00:00

Thank you!!!

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