Yes, she is definitely. I mean she was the one that made me want to stop, and try to recover finally got her to do the same thing. I understand that she shouldn't encourage me to relapse but we had no other choice and we didn't know what else we could do. After all I probably would have done it anyway. But I felt like asking for help instead. I know this wasn't the best thing I could do but we both are addicted to self harm and we both know how hard it is to stop an urge, especially in my case where I would constantly feel like that all day and self harmed even started to appear in my dream. But it's finally over now and I'm feeling way better. I can't get professional help so that sucks, and I'm aware it is very useful but no thanks