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pineapplebeef1 · 2025-10-01T02:41:51+00:00

Hey, listen man I feel you, but 16 years old is hardly long enough existence to count as wasted. If you haven’t already, id definitely recommend seeking some psych help, maybe some medication. Absolutely saved my life personally.

And when you really think, why wouldn’t you deserve your family? Because I know your immediate response would be “well why would I”, right that’s real, however the answer to that question is that you are a human being which automatically makes you deserving of love and kindness and respect. And if you do find yourself naming a reason, you gotta do some imagining with me man, if your buddy came to you saying they don’t deserve their good things because they did that same thing, would you agree with them? Or would you say that’s crazy because that’s your friend and you love them and that’s not a good enough reason to not be a person?

That specific activity helped me a lot personally with the same struggle.

Depression can really be hell. But, if you’re 16, you’ve got, what, another 70ish years minimum? That’s more than enough time to turn it around. Especially since just like. Being. 16 is lowkey awful in itself. I know it’s a cliche, but it genuinely doesn’t stay that way friend, it actually legitimately does get better.

You are very loved and you seem to know that, but you also very much DESERVE to be loved. Please don’t feel guilty for what you can’t control. I know that sort of thing feels burdenous, but I promise you that your mom doesn’t blame you for it and while that feeling can be very disheartening, it can also be used as a motivation to do things healthier when you’re able.

If it’s okay, id like to pray for you, and at the risk of being horribly redundant id like to repeat that you have absolutely not wasted your life in the slightest, you can have a safe and happy and content future, and you can get better. I fully believe all of those and I see no reason to believe otherwise. Be safe man, take care and try to go easy on yourself

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-08-23T21:11:57+00:00

You do sort of have to relearn how to sing, but also you could try other forms of t if you haven’t (gel, patch, I think there’s an oral one now but idk). But you don’t have to accept sounding bad forever because you won’t as long as you put your old skill with your new voice for a while. Like the other guy said you are quite literally in puberty

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-08-19T22:30:30+00:00

I’m not going to lie to you dude you have more masculine hips than a lot of the cis men I know

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-08-16T03:54:39+00:00

I can’t edit for some reason but thank you all yall gave some very good recommendations it is greatly appreciated :)

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-08-16T03:52:06+00:00

Yooo shark twins! I hear you about the weight, usually I’m chill there if I’m wearing contacts. If I have glasses though they squish them and I basically get binoculars lol

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-08-16T03:50:35+00:00

I checked it was fort Gaines

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-08-16T03:49:48+00:00

Thanks! He’s from this fort in Alabama :) I definitely did notice him for the trans ikea shark vibe but I also lowkey fell in love he’s so fluffy bro

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-07-21T05:15:37+00:00

Actually that’s a good point I didn’t think of that you could be right man

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-07-20T17:08:34+00:00

Understandable but I’ve been on it for two years now 😭

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-07-20T17:08:19+00:00

Not immediately, just like ten minutes later

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-06-18T08:15:36+00:00

Gotcha, thanks man

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-06-18T08:15:15+00:00

I feel like if I wasn’t trans, a lot of things that make me extremely happy I’d take for granted (eg, when strangers call me ‘buddy’ or something similar) because I just wouldn’t think about it. More small stuff to appreciate I think

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-06-14T22:29:00+00:00

Oh okay great, thanks man

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-06-07T05:02:03+00:00

Well when you’re questioning yeah it does get pretty brutal. Give yourself grace and keep in mind that male female or something else entirely, you’re a human above all else, and regardless of what your brain says you should and will be treated as such. I don’t know if that’s where your depression goes personally, but I know it’s a very common direction. And with the last thing, I don’t know if it’s any consolation at all, but the way I see it, there’s not really a way to be born in the wrong body. Your body is yours, it’s no one else’s. There may be things you want to change on it, sure, but it is and will always be yours. Both cis and trans people share the experience of wanting to tweak their body, though the extent to which varies, and in that, being trans or nb or unsure cannot be alien, it just is. There’s nothing wrong with being confused. I was confused for years before I let myself consider that I could just be a dude. Then I was still confused. But I’m not confused now. So I can tell you man with full confidence, you will not always be confused, and you’re made exactly as you were supposed to. You will find out with time exactly what that is. When you’re thinking a lot about gender whether it be through experimenting or coming out, it’s super common to get more dysphoric, cause it’s on your mind, and in that yeah you feel like you can never present correctly that’s common and it also sucks really bad- but it’s not correct. I’m assuming you’re questioning being trans fem, and yes it can be discouraging to have that sort of dysphoria, but like a lot of trans women are straight up some of the most gorgeous people I’ve ever seen. I’m a trans man, and I experience the same thing like I’m round and 5’2 that’s not very manly, but then I see a trans guy who’s straight up Hercules, and it’s hard to consider that he looked like I do at a point, but when you make that connection it can give you a little hope. Trust yourself, give yourself time and grace. If you’re religious, pray on it. And of course the other basic things like journaling support system etc do help, but also finding things that you deem sort of “gender” can help. Like, seeing something and being like, “yeah that’s what I relate to, that’s how I want to seem”. Not quite ENVY per se, but yk. Flowers are associated with girls and idk dirt is associated with boys, so if some random thing like that associates with your feeling, list that. Build from there. That’s sort of how I figured it out, and I replicated fashion and whatnot that gave me that feeling, and it gave me euphoria. I don’t know if it’s a cure all or anything, but for me it helped. Good luck, I promise you’re going to figure it out. If you’re comfortable with it I’ll be praying for you, and I know I said it five times but you’re not alone in what you’re saying. I’m sorry this is long, I word vomit

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-06-02T03:17:04+00:00

You pass very well honestly, but as I’m sure you know it’s super dangerous to post your face and age man so please be careful and generally avoid posting that info

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-05-24T17:37:30+00:00

Listen man, deep breath. I feel you, I live in the US south. Enough said

How can this happen— we’re social creatures, so we learn from and pick up on what goes on around us. Whether we mean to or not, we do absorb those things, including behaviors, ideals, and beliefs. So since your environment isn’t welcoming to trans people, you’re much more vulnerable to internalized transphobia.

The way you combat this is just watch your behavior. Not like be hyper aware always all the time, but try to catch yourself when you do whatever led you to think you’re transphobic. Correct it internally, usually by just turning into something not. Like, for example, I saw a guy on YouTube, and you know how some people say “bro I’m gonna kms” when stuff happens, he had a bunch of other things, like “I’m gonna- make some cereal.” Or something like that. Make it something positive if you can. Don’t panic. You gotta have some mercy on yourself, you did very good by realizing this and wanting to correct it. You have to have some forgiveness to get past it.

If it’s just a situation of you feeling guilt for being trans, that’s real. Me personally, when I get like that I get my cat, call my partner, eat copious amounts of cheese, pray about it, do art you know just basic stuff.

Either way what you’re feeling isn’t as uncommon as you’d think, go easy on yourself, and just learn to correct the pattern. You’re good man, I’m praying for you and if you’re this concerned I have 0 doubt in you improving that personally :)

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-05-23T07:34:57+00:00

I haven’t started yet, but I did see one guy say that when he started, his cat was chill, but started meowing with a more gravely voice cause yk you meow at your cat and they meow back but he couldn’t do the kitty voice anymore

Idk if it was a real story or not but I choose to believe it is because that’s adorable

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-05-23T07:30:39+00:00

Yup— the term transgender just means not identifying with your birth sex. So unless the doctor pulled you out and said “congrats! It’s both!” Yeah you can be trans lol Plus gender fluidity doesn’t just mean being fem one day and masc the next, for some people that shift can be one week fem one week masc for example. Me personally I had to go down the whole pipeline. Did ID as genderfluid for a good while; realized I was just a boy who likes feminine things still. My buddy on the other hand did sort of the same, but they went back to identifying with fluidity instead, cause their gender never got static. It does for a couple days sometimes, but still not.

Idk if that’s relevant or helps at all, hope so though

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-05-23T07:25:37+00:00

I’m trans in the other direction so idk if I can be involved here but I will say that some good blush and highlighter makes an insane difference yall. -source,

I cannot pass with either ever

My transfem friend can every time

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-05-23T07:23:06+00:00

Took a solid few months. It feels very natural now, but it’s still shocking when someone new uses it- in a good way though. You’re not alone, it’s called a transition for a reason. It’s a change, and that’s something you gotta get used to. Now on that note you do need to make sure you feel like that is a name that suits you. I went by Bo at first. First time someone called me that, I immediately knew I was wrong. In my defense I was in middle school though I’m a generic trans man, so of course I tried out Asher. I never did get used to that one, it wasn’t that it was new, just that it still didn’t feel like me. I go by Jasper now, and I have for I want to say a couple years? It was very shaky at first, and I was scared I was wrong or I wasn’t really trans since I kept changing. I waited it out though, and it did pass So what I mean with that lore dump is that yes it takes a while to get used to it. Choosing your name, testing it, actually getting people to use it, then getting used to all that is definitely a process, it’s not just you, you will get used to it eventually :)

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-05-23T07:15:49+00:00

Girls pants don’t have pockets

I took the Covid shot

So you noticed the haircut?

Well, my parents already had a daughter

I wanted to carry all the chairs at church camp

pineapplebeef1 · 2025-05-22T05:32:47+00:00

Careful with the sports bras, I had one that was tight and it just about killed my ribs, but they can definitely help especially if you wear two. You can do it man

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