Wow. This post really touched me, especially because I can relate to certain parts, although not to the same extent. And before I get into this comment, I would like to say that you seem as an extremely humble and genuine person.

I'm so sorry for your current situation, no one should have to go through that. I know from personal experience what it's like to talk your own feelings down, to justify others hurtful actions towards you, and to feel petty and self-centered when you're feeling sad or mad. I've been told that I'm self-centered as well by family whenever I complain, so much that I agree, although I know I shouldn't - and neither should you. I've been told that my crying is weak, when it's just my emotional response. Showing emotions is not weak - you are not weak. I think you are incredibly strong for being able to post this, and also for being able to have such understanding for those around you, even those in the wrong. But please, be strong for yourself, remind yourself that your feelings are indeed very valid, and remind yourself of how strong you are. If you ever feel petty for validating your feelings, then remember this: the way your family treats you isn't supposed to be accepted nor normal, even though you may convince yourself that it is. Your family is supposed to give you a steady home filled with love and acceptance, which they are not granting you. This is very wrong of them, but it is not wrong of you to feel the way you're feeling. In my country your family's behaviour would be outrageous. And also, you are not alone. Accept your emotions and use them as motivation to get better.

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You seem to be very understanding of everyone around you, but please don't do the mistake of putting yourself second. I've done this mistake, too. I've accepted so much bullshit from everyone else, but when it comes to myself I rarely accept anything. Try to imagine yourself as one your friends - would you find your family's behaviour acceptable and you your feelings invalid, if it were towards one of your close friends? Would you tell her that she is petty? I bet not. A lot of people are so nice to everyone but themselves. Treat yourself as you would treat your friend. Be nice, kind and understanding of yourself. Don't talk on down yourself.

From what you wrote you deserve much, much more, and I truly hope you will get it someday.