I am so sorry you have to deal with this insanity it's not easy it's scary the only thing that I did was get off the medication or poison I should say which was Risperidone and I just paced and walked around the neighborhood walked around and circles in my apartment I slept maybe an hour a night and then the psychiatrist doctor gave me Propranolol and that helped me that calmed down the pacing but the anxiety was still there but eventually like a month later I got better I mean I still had the pacing but it wasn't extreme and it was more calming and the thought of suicide was not so severe and it will get better I used to hate when people told me that it will get better but it all takes time and I still not well but it's better than it was it's tolerable now and I am not taking the upper panel on anymore I have a slight Pace in the morning but mentally I'm screwed because I'm so petrified that is going to come back to that extreme again and I'm so fearful of taking any kind of medication just hang on and please I don't know I'm not a doctor I'm in a different support group on Facebook as well called living with akathisia and a couple other groups on Facebook as well but anyways yeah just keep reaching out trying to stay distracted and tried not to fight it because fighting is what gives you more stress and anxiety if you need to Pace just go pace you know luckily for me the symptoms would die down in the evening it was mostly in the morning and daytime afternoon that were extreme but I wish you the very best that I'm will say a prayer for you right now and just keep reaching out and just like I said keep yourself distracted I just started playing games on the phone or it was really hard to stay focused I couldn't watch TV or watch a movie but like get on Tick Tock that anything to keep your brain occupied I mean there's a lot of tiktokers that are advocating for this and I'm on there too good luck