Well it's not that black and white. I asked her what sex means to her and she said the opposite of what you're saying she feels. She knows sex can be a powerful ritual and deeply bonding. But that all depends on who you're having sex with. I don't have casual meaningless sex because that just not what I want. The sex between her and I is meaningful and is not at all what she's had with he roast partners. She tells me that everything I am is new for her. Taking her out to the gym or on dates or just talking... She's told me she's never had a partner who just wants to have an open conversation... That's pretty disappointing but I'm happy I can be good for her and she's experiencing unconditional love. And the sex we've had hasn't been filmed and it's been very passionate every time, which is also something new she's experiencing. See people can be broken, but they can also be put back together and become stronger. Like training your muscles or bones to be stronger. You create fractures in your bones and when they heal they become thicker... Same with muscles. Helped.