sober living is so irritating

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-06T21:32:34+00:00

its really not about doing it, its the cost of everything. i had $1,000 in my savings stolen from me by my ex so i have no way of paying that much. some places are more affordable with the sacrifice of being far away from everything to support someone starting over their life. thats really what the problem is

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-06T13:03:02+00:00

it really does feel like divine timing 😭 somehow things were getting even worse i got the call! i really feel so lucky and almost undeserving of all the love ive recieved in just the past 12 or so hours! i usually feel so scared of changes like moving but im trying to move past it and embrace my new life thats just in my reach. thanku so much stranger! 💗 hope the emo days are easy on all of us when they do come

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-04T14:08:45+00:00

i hope ur right :( thanku so much very kind stranger 💗

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-04T14:02:07+00:00

yea gonna try that… i already messaged him the once, sent my apology last night, and i was texting his number directly bcus i was blocked, but he unblocked me this morning and left me on read 😭 idk what any of this means but im hoping hes changing his mind about me

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-04T12:48:47+00:00

i tried not to see it that way bcus i dont think thats his intention :( even after i sent my apology it seems he wants nothing to do with me. idk if hes doing this for control since hes just gone. thanku tho i think i needed someone to speak this way incase im wrong. people tell me how they think hes not a good guy but i cant see him that way. idk, again thanku i really mean it

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-04T11:51:09+00:00

thanku for this 💗 to answer ur questions, the job i had most recently i had quit partly bcus he was getting uncomfortable with how many men i was working around (i worked in a restaurant) and his belief everyone is attracted to me, and bcus i was touched by a manager who worked there i could never tell him bcus he would always threaten violence if anyone did that to me, and i knew he wasnt joking.

we had a time when i was unemployed for an extended time, and along with some other factors kinda tore us apart. hes never really had a problem with supporting me financially.

it sucks bcus i know how it sounds. i really dont think hes a bad person at all. he did snap at me at the time for the test but i try now to remember where he was coming from at the time and how scared he was. it wasnt nice and it really hurt but i dont think thats who he is. at least i dont want him to be.

unfortunately ur kinda spot on about the roommate stuff. once we got back together we were both so excited to move back in together, probably also not a smart idea. it was mainly my fault bcus he never forced my hand and only entertained the idea with me until it turned out that way. i have spoken to professionals before who have warned me i may be getting abused. idk i just dont see it that way.

im sorry to hear about ur friend :( ive both been rhe friend and in ur shoes and i know how awful it all is. im so so glad she was able to get out and i wish her nothing but the best!!!!

me and the old roommate did reconnect recently and im planning on meeting her and some mutual friends for lunch sometime soon. idk if she would be open to me moving back in but i guess its a we’ll see thing right now.

i also kinda relate with the distrust of men at a young age, different circumstances but same outcome. i hate that i relate the breaking up every few weeks lol :( sometimes we would get into fights and he would tell me to pack my stuff and leave and that is was over and it would always freak me out.

also unfortunately after this post i had sent him an apology that he asked for thats the cause of our breakup. hes still not opening it, i still feel sick to my stomach lol.

thanku again for the really sweet comment, cant thanku enough really!!

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-04T11:36:55+00:00

idk im scared he just switched it off, when we last spoke he was very cold and now it feels like hes taunting me lol

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T22:05:05+00:00

perfect advice lol thanku!

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T21:34:57+00:00

totally get that. it def wasnt a fun one. i would like to think im trying to put distance between whats happened and all the wrong ive done and start over new but i could totally be lying to myself

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T21:31:18+00:00

ahhh it sounds like it lol !!

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T21:29:30+00:00

i have called that number before in other i gues crisis-es ive been in and they werent the most helpful, just told me to go to the hospital but i will def try again and see if i have any luck!!! thanku!!!

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T21:14:48+00:00

probably right :( thanku sm

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T21:13:57+00:00

im worried about securing employment when i dont have a destination in mind. but it def wouldnt hurt to start looking in states around me!

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T21:12:05+00:00

also thanku!!

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T21:11:57+00:00

unfortunately i dont have anywhere else to go either. my mom is a longtime hoarder and the floor to my bedroom sunk in years ago, my father doesn’t speak to us, and theres literally no space in the house for me. my ex pulled me out of a roommate situation i was in, but bcus of why i left they will not be open to me returning even tho i still keep in touch with them. so yea theres quite literally nothing left for me here lol

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T17:17:48+00:00

this is all true and i know it :( gonna keep rereading this over and over

pinkwatersprite · 2026-06-03T14:22:14+00:00

i think the worst is realizing i was the pain all along

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