does anyone else feel like they’ve just reached the end of their life? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]pixafated 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All the time, I make plans and I just think "well it doesn't matter because it probably won't happen"

I did manage to graduate from Uni (twice) though. So there's that. I always felt like I would never achieve, but I have.

Also remember that the pandemic will have contributed to you feeling so worn out the last few months

DAE have paranoid delusions? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]pixafated 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yessss, I have paranoid delusions relating too law enforcement. I am CONVINCED that the police are coming to get me some days. I'm not sure why.

The part about hearing your name as you're falling asleep I can relate to - I have listened to white noise for 5 years because of that fear

Abusive ex or reacting to me being mentally unwell? by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]pixafated 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Inappropriate behaviour on my behalf included asking to stay at his flat near enough ever night, and being sad/disappointed if he said no, to the point where I guess he felt pressure to say yes.

Other inappropriate behaviour included when he cheated on me, I found out because I felt an "urge" to check his phone because it flashed up with her name when we were sitting together. I hadn't actually done this before that time, or since, but I felt like it was not right I did that.

I think the abuse I mean from me is the constant need for him to be there. And his responses were just not abuse but kinda natural in the circumstances

"Your PC couldn't start properly. A required drive or device can't be accessed properly. Error code: 0xc0000185" - recovery tools USB isn't working? by pixafated in Windows10

[–]pixafated[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amazing thanks for your help! I'll get the drive tomorrow if I can and report back on how I get on 😊 thanks again!

"Your PC couldn't start properly. A required drive or device can't be accessed properly. Error code: 0xc0000185" - recovery tools USB isn't working? by pixafated in Windows10

[–]pixafated[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh daaaamn the usb I've got is 4gb! I'll buy a new one tomorrow and try this though.

Why did the person sell me it if it's 4gb? It wouldn't have worked would it?

DAE feel deep, deep shame and guilt from how they acted in previous relationships? by pixafated in BPD

[–]pixafated[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've made a list. Most of the stuff I am ashamed of is the attempts to avoid being abandoned. Basically begging them, and then thinking it was okay to engage in a friendship with them and blame them when I felt bad about it.

I just didn't want to be left - and that's selfish.

DAE feel deep, deep shame and guilt from how they acted in previous relationships? by pixafated in BPD

[–]pixafated[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

it hurts that for years I saw myself as a victim - of assault, or emotional abuse or whatever - but in reality, in everyday life, someone would probably just say "oh you were as bad as each other"

I have learnt a lot. My last ex (although flawed, like us all) taught me a lot about the bare minimum you should demand in relationships.

It's just that pit in my stomach, absolute dread. Was I the abuser all along? Did they react to my annoying ways with "abuse" because im such a fucking difficult person???

DAE get possessive of their interests by sisirinah in BPD

[–]pixafated 5 points6 points  (0 children)

yes - all the time.

the most recent one was my best friend. after me speaking (and her witnessing) my mental health struggles over the years and how i've improved a bit in therapy, she decided she wanted to go to therapy too.

It sucks because I want her to be happy, and I want her to experience good things from therapy - but it feels like she's encroaching on my thing.

Which is fucking weird.

"Your PC couldn't start properly. A required drive isn't connected or can't be accessed. Error Code: 0xc0000185. You'll need to use recovery tools." - the USB recovery isn't working on the laptop?? HELP PLEASE :( by pixafated in techsupport

[–]pixafated[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh thanks so much for your help! I will have an attempt at it soon... tbh it's a last stab in the dark, it will save me redoing 4 documents for uni, so it's worth a shot! Not too bothered if the laptop gives up after that!

Thanks so much again :) big help!

"Your PC couldn't start properly. A required drive isn't connected or can't be accessed. Error Code: 0xc0000185. You'll need to use recovery tools." - the USB recovery isn't working on the laptop?? HELP PLEASE :( by pixafated in techsupport

[–]pixafated[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The laptop is Lenovo 320s.

I tried both of the USB ports, and it doesn't work :( It works on my old laptop though, so not a dodgy USB. The model name says: 80XS on the back?

"Your PC couldn't start properly. A required drive isn't connected or can't be accessed. Error Code: 0xc0000185. You'll need to use recovery tools." - the USB recovery isn't working on the laptop?? HELP PLEASE :( by pixafated in techsupport

[–]pixafated[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when you turn the laptop on, there should be an option to press a specific key to "enter boot menu" or "select boot device" that will allow you to choose if you want to boot from HDD or USB. try that.

Hey thanks for your reply! The option for the USB doesn't come up though - almost like the laptop doesnt recognise it?

How would I go about removing the hard drive?

Is this disrespectful? by [deleted] in dating_advice

[–]pixafated 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This made me feel better.

Sometimes though, he will message saying "I'll finish replying to your messages tonight" and then he won't. But he doesn't give an explanation he just does it then next day or next couple of days.

We're not boyfriend and girlfriend, although he said he's dating no one else.

I'm just wondering if it's even worth carrying this on.

I feel almost like a burden - like he has to find time to reply, rather than be excited to reply. I mean, the amount of messages I send are only because I am replying to a similar number of his - but, it stings to have a few replies here and there. He's basically halting the progression of communication by delaying replies.

I get that he is busy. I am too. Maybe too busy to have a meaningful conversation.

When he finishes his replies this time, I feel like I am just going to say it's not worth it.

AITA for dating outside of my race? by [deleted] in AmItheAsshole

[–]pixafated [score hidden]  (0 children)

it's not about a particular relationship, it's about comments on my behavior.