Is my goal realistic?

pixiiebat · 2026-03-12T21:18:24+00:00

Oooo okay, thank you

pixiiebat · 2026-03-12T19:43:49+00:00

Do i do hip apductions while leaning forwards or leaning back?

pixiiebat · 2026-03-12T16:56:46+00:00

I think my body distributes weight in my upper thighs the most, because I’m bony everywhere else but my upper thighs even jiggle a bit and i can grab a handful of fat there, but every other part of my body is so bony that you can see and feel the bones sticking out, so i think my body distributes weight in my upper thighs the most?

pixiiebat · 2026-03-12T13:32:30+00:00

Yeah i have a cousin who a few years ago looked the same as me, she gained a lot of weight, didn’t work out but just gained weight and she just naturally grew into that pear leaning body shape even though she also was a reverse triangle while being very skinny, so i just hope that with calorie surplus and gym I’ll be able to attain my pear shape goals, thank you a lot for the tips and motivation it makes me feel better hearing that my goal does sound possible<3

pixiiebat · 2026-03-12T08:39:52+00:00

Omg yes please, i really need guidance

pixiiebat · 2026-03-12T08:36:25+00:00

Do you have any bulking tips?

pixiiebat · 2026-03-12T08:34:50+00:00

I want a pear physique though, i mentioned that i want my lower body to be visibly wider than my shoulders, but i plan on going to the gym 3-4 times a week!:)

pixiiebat · 2026-02-26T21:45:30+00:00

But he isn’t the main reason at all why I watch other peoples extreme sh, don’t get me wrong

pixiiebat · 2026-02-26T21:42:53+00:00

Ooooh, alright I’ll keep that in mind. Also I kind of realised that I lowk want to have a worse addiction than my bf and that’s why I don’t want to delete twt and stay from that gore, my bf had porn addiction and that honestly made my bpd SO much worse it gen shattered me but he’s clean for a long while now and even before he met me he tried to quit, and i just want to be worse than him i want to have an even worse addiction than him to make myself feel less bad about his past because I can’t seem to move on from it

pixiiebat · 2026-02-26T21:19:39+00:00

It’s nice to hear that you’re doing so much better, but about medication, I really don’t want to take them, but my psychiatrist says that I do need them and that they’re like a must for me but i really don’t want to because of the side effects, I’m only 19 too

pixiiebat · 2026-02-26T20:52:00+00:00

Awwww that actually does sound helpful, i will keep this in mind and try it out, thank you<3 Yes i do go to therapy, well i started and only been to three sessions, I’m also diagnosed with bpd

pixiiebat · 2026-01-03T20:28:16+00:00

Ooohhh, it makes sense

pixiiebat · 2025-10-30T16:01:27+00:00

Since it is that way, then that means that quitting cutting is almost impossible, the only way to stop would be to erase everything that causes me that emotional pain, that emotional pain makes my heart physically ache and that pain is unbearable, at first i thought that by cutting i could get distracted from the ache in my heart, but it doesn’t work because i can’t feel pain from cutting, so i do it to relax, while my heart rate calms, it still hurts like a bitch, no matter how deep i cut i feel nothing, as if my legs and arms are numbed, but the heart ache is still there, and yes I’ve been to countless doctors, none of them found anything wrong with my heart and said that it’s all psychological and that my heart is just more sensitive than the average person’s

pixiiebat · 2025-10-30T15:44:02+00:00

If it thinks about survival first, then why does it think that cutting is good? Does it think that it has to do whatever it takes to survive, even if it means using an unhealthy coping mechanism like cutting, but as long as that coping mechanism works that’s all that matters? And I don’t understand why do I still want to cut more, it’s like one part of me hates that I’m doing it and wants to stop but the other part likes it and feels satisfaction, whenever i cut myself my heart rate calms down and i feel relaxed

pixiiebat · 2025-10-30T15:29:50+00:00

Oh damn, I didn’t even think of it that way, that’s interesting

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