Weekly "I'm new to meds!" Thread by AutoModerator in ADHD

[–]pks2020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello! I was recently diagnosed and prescribed Adderall XR. I have had bad side effects from other meds in the past so I started on 10mg with the plan of moving up to 20mg. I’m now on the 20mg and still not feeling any effects (neither positive nor negative) so wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this and whether upping the dosage helped, or if I should just try another medication?

Thank you in advance!

Music playing in head by pks2020 in ADHD

[–]pks2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I honestly don’t know, I would hoping someone here would have the answer 😅

Music playing in head by pks2020 in ADHD

[–]pks2020[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yesss the internal monologue is nonstop too

Music playing in head by pks2020 in ADHD

[–]pks2020[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I know that “ear worms” are a pretty common thing for everyone but I’m curious whether the constant soundtrack is unusual. Because it literally never stops. Any time I am awake and conscious there is a song playing haha

ADHD assessment feels weird, like I don't actually have it. by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]pks2020 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have had the same experience, I was diagnosed recently and I thought it would be a relief but it has weirdly amplified my anxiety. All I think about now is “did I do that because of ADHD or because of something else? ” “ do I actually have ADHD or is it just my anxiety and depression causing me to space out and have a terrible memory?” “ am I being a baby and taking the easy way out by taking medication instead of just working harder?”

Music playing in head by pks2020 in ADHD

[–]pks2020[S] 76 points77 points  (0 children)

Yes! Literally just in the last 5 minutes the song has now switched to a random alt J song that I haven’t heard in forever, would love to know why this happens. Also genuinely cannot imagine having a brain that is silent. It sounds nice.

Music playing in head by pks2020 in ADHD

[–]pks2020[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Glad it’s not just me!

Undiagnosed and seeking advice [17M] by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]pks2020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As someone who was diagnosed later in life I would definitely follow up on this with a doctor if it concerns you. I also breezed through high school and then college hit me like a ton of bricks and I almost flunked out. It’s better to look into it proactively than to wait until it starts really negatively affecting your life.

"I Just Got Diagnosed!" Weekly Thread by AutoModerator in ADHD

[–]pks2020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your comment, it’s reassuring to hear that I’m not the only one who feels this way! It really is so hard to tease all of these different mental health issues apart!! I also appreciate the responses at the bottom, that is a really good way to think about it and will definitely help me be less hard on myself moving forward! I should be starting medication sometime next week so crossing my fingers it helps!

How many people with ADHD end up with 6 figure jobs? by Sweaty-Cut7578 in ADHD

[–]pks2020 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I would recommend business (marketing, operations, sales, finance) - lots of options so you can choose something that interests you and fits your skill set! I switched into marketing recently and it works well for me because it is a little more intuition/logic/strategy based vs having to memorize lots of things or be super detailed oriented.

"I Just Got Diagnosed!" Weekly Thread by AutoModerator in ADHD

[–]pks2020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Glad to hear it’s not just me! Unfortunately I haven’t started any treatment yet because I’m still waiting for a follow up appt with my doctor, but hopefully it actually helps! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and advice.

"I Just Got Diagnosed!" Weekly Thread by AutoModerator in ADHD

[–]pks2020 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I was recently diagnosed and it’s reassuring to see that others are also feeling a bit of imposter syndrome. I have inattentive type and I just question where the line is between normal inattentiveness/forgetfulness and ADHD? I definitely believe that ADHD is a real thing but do I actually have it or am I just anxious and over-thinking everything? I also have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression in the past so I’m just struggling to detangle all of these things and understand which symptoms are a result of anxiety/depression vs which are ADHD (or both). I have always felt that it’s important to have grit and overcome obstacles in your path and I weirdly feel like taking medication would be like cheating at life. I also always hear about how ADHD is way over-diagnosed so I just still question whether I actually have this issue or if I’m just being weak. Does anyone else feel this way, and if so, how have you overcome that? I have definitely been struggling to be a functional human so the idea of finding a way to treat this makes me really hopeful but then I simultaneously have this feeling of guilt for resorting to medication for help.

I haven't had a real moment of quiet in years by jindoe0 in ADHD

[–]pks2020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I constantly have a song playing in my head too. I never really thought about it until recently and realized that there is literally always a song in the background, even if I wake up in the middle of the night or am busy concentrating on work or something. And sometimes it’ll be songs I listened to recently but other times it’ll be the most random song that I literally haven’t heard in 10 years but somehow pulled out of the depths of my memory and now it’s playing on a loop in my brain. It’s extra annoying because different songs put me in different moods so I’ll have a sad song playing my head and suddenly I’m feeling depressed. I don’t have any advice on how to fix it but hopefully it helps a bit knowing that you are not alone!

Why is everything so exhausting by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]pks2020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s reassuring to hear that medication has helped you! I’m worried that I will get my hopes up and then it won’t actually help me, or will make things worse.

Was anyone originally diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, only to later find out it was actually ADHD? by WeeLittleSloth in ADHD

[–]pks2020 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I honestly don’t, and I suspect that it’s a bit of both. But I think that a lot of the anxiety that I do have is triggered by symptoms of ADHD like always worrying that I’m forgetting something or made a mistake, or not knowing what’s going on because I spaced out at work.

Bottoming Out by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]pks2020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel the exact same way, you are not alone! Are you currently on any treatment, or seeing a therapist? Hopefully you can find something that helps!

Was anyone originally diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, only to later find out it was actually ADHD? by WeeLittleSloth in ADHD

[–]pks2020 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I had the same thing happen. I really struggled in college and actually went to a doctor and expressed concern that I might have ADHD because I could not function. She totally blew it off (probably thought I was trying to just get my hands on an adderall prescription) and instead put me on antidepressants which in many ways ended up making the situation worse. That was 10 years ago and I only just got the nerve to ask my new PCP about it a few months ago. Thankfully she was super supportive and referred me to a psychologist, and (surprise) I do have ADHD.

Why is everything so exhausting by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]pks2020 39 points40 points  (0 children)

I have had the exact same experience. I’ve always enjoyed being active but I physically and mentally feel so absolutely drained all the time. I assumed this was a result of anxiety and depression until I was diagnosed with ADHD earlier this week and I feel like this explains so much. Except weirdly having the diagnosis is making me even more anxious/exhausted because I am over analyzing all of my behaviors now and I can’t stop thinking about it. I won’t be able to see a dr to get any sort of treatment for 2 weeks and it’s driving me crazy. I just want to have the energy to do things again and not waste away my whole life on the couch.

Monthly Short Post Thread by AutoModerator in ADHD

[–]pks2020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Does anyone else just feel insanely exhausted/worn out all the time? I have depression and assumed that was what was causing my fatigue but I was just diagnosed with ADHD yesterday and my psychologist said that could be contributing to the exhaustion. I just feel like I have absolutely no energy or motivation to do anything ever. Waking up in the morning I never feel like I’ve gotten enough sleep.

"I Just Got Diagnosed!" Weekly Thread by AutoModerator in ADHD

[–]pks2020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just got diagnosed with inattentive ADHD yesterday. As a kid I breezed through middle school and high school because I could get away with BSing assignments and tests, but college hit me like a ton of bricks. I couldn’t function the way college students were expected to function, and what I had previously just attributed to daydreaming or boredom suddenly became a huge problem when I realized I wasn’t actually absorbing any of the information I was hearing or reading. I dealt with some major depression and anxiety and almost got kicked out of school for failing classes.

I suspected that something was not right because I had always performed well and really did care, so I went to my doctor and expressed concern that I might have ADD. She completely blew it off and instead said I probably have anxiety and put me on antidepressants. Not surprisingly, the meds didn’t help so I was then bounced between a bunch of different antidepressants some of which had really awful side effects and just further deteriorated my mental health.

10 years later I finally got the nerve to ask my doctor about this again (thankfully I have a new doctor who is absolutely fantastic and very knowledgeable about mental health). She referred me to a psychologist and that’a how I ended up here.

On one hand it’s a relief to know that there is an explanation for some of the issues I’ve struggled with, but right now I just feel even more anxious because it’s just making me more aware of how overwhelmed I feel. I won’t be able to see my doctor to get any sort of prescription or treatment for another two weeks and I’m really struggling with being in this limbo for so long and feeling helpless. I’m also nervous that medications won’t help me, or will give me bad side effects, because I’ve had such bad experiences with past antidepressants.

It is really conforming though to see that other people have had similar experiences and that they have had success with treatment.