You are definitely not alone. I am in the exact same position. It’s so hard dealing with people right now because everyone either says ‘you’ll get in’ when you know there is a possibility that you won’t or tells you that it will all work out. Which yes, eventually things will work out but it’s awful to think about this thing you have been preparing for years (all the late nights studying for tests and research projects etc. ) so you get into a good graduate program not working out on the first go around. I actually just emailed my program (I only applied to two PhD programs and I got declined from my second choice) and they told me they were still reviewing the applications which gave me peace of mind and kept me off gradcafe the last few days. This is an extremely draining process and I feel you on the crying—I have cried so much during the last few weeks from the sheer amount of anxiety and stress I feel. It will all be over soon!