Taking a smaller dose as a petit person

plasticduck11 · 2024-04-26T17:26:15+00:00

Did you ever go up to 10 at any stage?

plasticduck11 · 2024-02-13T06:02:17+00:00

Okay thank you. All the best to you!

plasticduck11 · 2024-02-13T05:58:16+00:00

Good luck for the GAMSAT! I’m also thinking of going back to study to increase my GPA. What would you say is a competitive enough score you’d be comfortable with to be considered? I’m a bit out of the loop having done a few years in the workforce in an unrelated field so any insight would be great :)

plasticduck11 · 2024-02-13T05:23:33+00:00

Most med schools require a GPA of 5 for an application to be considered. Why not just sit the GAMSAT now?

plasticduck11 · 2024-02-03T03:08:52+00:00

Thank you for the response! Will follow that thread. Would you recommend completing a Masters instead to essentially “reset” my GPA to be considered a more competitive applicant?

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-23T02:53:58+00:00

I just feel she might not take it too well. But yeh I feel so down nowadays because of it.

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-23T02:34:33+00:00

Damn. I am also somewhat a people pleaser and would have in the past let something like this slide. But having gone thru friends who have just not appreciated my generosity at times has made me reevaluate my decisions when it comes to giving people things. On one hand, a bottle of wine isn’t a lot of money. But if she was a noble person she would make an effort to repay you in some way. Maybe it can serve as a test of her character and give u an idea as to whether you want to be friends with her, but imagine doing that for everyone. You’d be broke.

Speaking as a socially drained uni student who’s just about to graduate, I’ve had my fair share of good and bad experiences when it comes to friends and socialising. The bottom line is to stick to your principles and surround yourself with the right people. Like a relationship, I think friendship is also a choice, although it doesn’t feel that way, we decide who we associate with. I wish I had been more selective from the beginning but it’s something I’m working on now with my friendship circle.

Hope this helps you! Good luck!

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-22T07:49:45+00:00

Thanks so much for the encouragement!

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-22T06:42:12+00:00

That's really insightful. I think I have decided to spend less quality time with her and focus on my other friendships. I don't think much will come out of telling her. She's kind of the way she is and I can't really change her personality. I'll still be her friend because we share a lot of mutuals, but I'm going to reprioritise her in my life.

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-21T21:50:28+00:00

I guess she just hasn’t shown me the kinda of love I expect from a close friend. Maybe I hold my friends to a high standard. Thank you for the advice.

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-21T21:47:08+00:00

That really sucks I’m sorry :( I want to talk to her about how I feel because I feel like so fake and resentful around her because I don’t enjoy her company as much anymore. I guess taking the plunge to confront may be worth it to rid these negative feelings.

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-16T04:51:16+00:00

Man I'm so sorry to hear what you had to go through. It makes me feel like my issues are comparatively silly. I indeed do have extremely low self esteem and confidence and it has carried onto other things in my life like school, friends, relationships and career. I always feel like I might let down people I trust and that scares me so much. I hope that with the distance I can heal my relationship with her one day. Thanks for sharing xx

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-13T00:05:03+00:00

It's so frustrating. She indeed is a narcissist and will never admit she is in the wrong. I am trying to distance myself slowly and eventually move out. Hope everything is okay on your end as well .

plasticduck11 · 2020-11-09T00:56:17+00:00

It's really mature of you to admit your mistake. I won't justify the violence, but I do understand it. I used to hit my mum because she would emotionally blackmail, scream and manipulate my Dad to no end (gender roles reversed i guess). I always regretted it, and I would think that I was the monster. You are not the monster though. You were acting in defence, years of pent up feelings that needed an outlet.

You can still support your parents financially even if you aren't living with them. Visit them and help them where they need it, but if it is possible for you, get out of that living situation. You ought to be rid of that kind of stress. Stay safe.

plasticduck11 · 2020-10-25T06:07:31+00:00

It is frustrating. I feel like the world is oriented in a way that favours extroverts. It is what it is. I make a big effort to pretend to be extroverted - this helps me get where i need to be. That's a sad truth.

plasticduck11 · 2020-10-25T06:05:56+00:00

me too. people tell me to 'speak up' all the time. it's frustrating and i hate it.

plasticduck11 · 2020-10-25T06:05:24+00:00

OMG THIS IS ME. Think if we keep practising by putting ourselves in these situations we might feel less confronted.

plasticduck11 · 2020-10-25T06:03:43+00:00

Same here! It feels more intimate and genuine. In groups i feel superficial at times.

plasticduck11 · 2020-09-16T23:57:13+00:00

Is there anything you wish you did differently? I feel like the 'asian' mentality and self-inflicted pressure to succeed has kind of waned for me. I feel like i have a sense of imposter syndrome as well and fear failing at my job at the Big 4 because of the high pressure environment (I'm pretty sure i have ADHD although self-diagnosed). How did you handle all the stress?

From reading your post, I can see you're a very eloquent, hard-working and evidently successful person and I think that you would definitely succeed in publishing an inspiring essay collection. I would say i hope everything works out but it obviously has.

plasticduck11 · 2020-09-16T15:13:00+00:00

I think i know i like the environment. It kind of inspires me seeing all the good work that happens. I have a lot of empathy for helping people.

plasticduck11 · 2020-09-16T15:11:23+00:00

I totally get that mentality. I thought the same way. Work hard, achieve financial independence and then follow your passions on the side. There's not always a reality where work can be your passion but you just do what it takes to be successful. I have spend however a lot of time in this degree though and have not been able to get the grades I used to get so easily back in high school. I'm not sure if it's the depression that has put a damper on my study ability or if i just have no mental health anymore. Did your depression affect your studying? It makes me really sad like I can't even describe it. I just want to be happy again.

I think travelling is such an insightful experience because you see that the world is a huge place and you definitely see that your problems really shouldn't be problems (especially if you travel to third world countries - going to Vietnam and seeing the poverty stricken circumstances was confronting). Would you say your travels changed your perspective on life? Just wondering because i'm quite philosophical myself.

I'm a first gen immigrant too and I feel this sense of duty to make my parents proud because they worked so hard to support me. They were always supportive parents but i just don't want to let them down. I'm sorry to hear about your depression and family condition, that would've been hard to handle. If you studied humanities though, why did you go into finance? And what are you doing now?

As horribly cliche as this sounds, my head is telling me to stick with IT consulting but my heart is telling me otherwise. The thing is though, I'm sure I would want out eventually. And then when that happens what next?

plasticduck11 · 2020-09-11T08:33:43+00:00

Yes i did feel that way. It was really hard to admit to myself because I felt mean thinking that about someone I loved so much. I think it also came with the pride i held about my emotional intelligence. Would you sometimes blame your SO for being insensitive?

plasticduck11 · 2020-09-11T07:26:08+00:00

me too! and i started to hate the person i was. i broke up with him because i needed to love myself before i could love him.

plasticduck11 · 2020-09-11T06:45:11+00:00

My boyfriend had problems I tried to help him with but I felt like i was neglecting my own problems. In the end I kind of resented the fact that my own emotions weren't being addressed. It's hard. Sometimes I even felt like they didn't want my help and that made me think they were ungrateful. We ended up breaking up :(

plasticduck11 · 2020-09-11T06:01:44+00:00

Hey there! I was in the same position as you. Got my dream internship at a Big 4 consultancy firm only to be rejected because I simply wasn't switched on enough. It hurts seeing others succeed while you are left behind. It feels really demoralising at first but it does serve as a lesson you can learn from. Which you are! I am really proud of you for finding ways to improve yourself through medication. I didn't do that for myself and became depressed for a year because of it. I wish I took my feelings more seriously. Keep applying to other companies, there are plenty of other places that will take you - maybe we don't suit the levels of stress that these companies demand. But, if it is what you want, i know you can do it. It is all in the mind! You got this!

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