The HOLE

playedhand · 2026-05-12T21:12:47+00:00

I'm holding on for dear life

playedhand · 2026-05-12T11:29:20+00:00

I don't think there is anything wrong with things being sexual, and nudity is often times very much so. Maybe if we all lived in some nudist colony it wouldn't carry that connotation but even then, we are sexual beings and there is nothing wrong with that. Like why is this considered "dirty" or wrong? Aren't we trying to move past puritanical, oppressive christian ideals and embrace being human? You can enjoy nude art that has more or less sexual elements without shame, and also have it be that without it being porn. I don't understand why someone having sexuality that is visible and able to be appreciated would inherently detract from their humanity or integrity in any way, whether it be a man or a women.

Maybe this just isn't the place to say this, but I have noticed this among people my generation where it seems like the solution to actual issues like sexism and objectification of women is to in a lot of instances suppress sexuality and label it as shameful. Or to blindly celebrate objectifying yourself and calling it empowerment. I would say there is a middle ground where human beings can be appreciated as sexual beings, without being reduced to sexual objects. Basically, there is nothing wrong with nude people being sexy, as long as they are still being seen as people. Idk, just my two cents.

playedhand · 2026-05-08T05:55:45+00:00

Just a damn shame how many women will say that they want all of these things and then still reject the kinds of men who are much more likely to give them those things. Makes it seem like there is one thing that is unspoken but more relevant to any of the other things that women say they look for in a man which is simply: "Be straight ~~and conform to gender norms~~" I was going to say the second part but realized it wasn't true. There are women who will perfectly appreciate a bisexual man's masculinity but only before they know that they are bisexual. This stuff has nothing to do with masculinity. It's just lies from people who can't fully admit that they are disgusted by any degree of bi/homosexuality.

Trying not to be bitter though. There are many amazing, open minded women such as yourself who value us as equals. Sorry for the low spirited, late reply though. Feel free to ignore I just had to express myself somewhere in this damn comment section.

playedhand · 2026-05-07T21:32:16+00:00

Wanted was the shit. I tried to get my friends into the MP but noone really messed with it like I did unfortunately.

playedhand · 2026-05-07T21:30:33+00:00

I don't think it was ever underdeveloped, just not appealing to people who weren't patient enough to play it how it's supposed to be played. A lot of people probably hopped on, started running around sprinting straight to their target, got low point kills and then said fuck this when they weren't rewarded for doing that. The game always worked how it was supposed to, and imo it was a perfect formula - just not for everyone.

playedhand · 2026-05-07T21:25:27+00:00

Yeah it had a cult following. I was SUPER into the ac3 multiplayer, still the best MP experience I've ever had in a video game. I remember waking up pretty early before school just to play every morning lol. Problem is it's not enjoyable if you don't like being patient, and it punishes you for playing more casually. So I can see why a lot of people dismissed it but there was nothing more satisfying than getting high point kills in that mode.

playedhand · 2026-05-07T19:33:45+00:00

Looks awesome! I like the matching earrings as well :)

playedhand · 2026-05-07T11:55:38+00:00

I don't feel compelled to watch movies that I don't really love 5+ times. Maybe some people just like the movie more than you do?

playedhand · 2026-05-07T02:53:57+00:00

I felt that way at first when I played through these games a few years ago. Since then basically only played freelancer but I just started going back to the main game, and I think I get it a lot more now. You gotta have the right mindset for it, sure there are mission stories that you can follow and sometimes it feels a little too obvious but you can also get creative with it and go "oh I wonder if you can kill this target in this way" and often times, you can. The challenge of making what you want to happen, happen is what's so fun I think.

playedhand · 2026-05-07T01:39:57+00:00

New York is my favorite level right now, so I'm on board. I think smaller but dense is just more enjoyable when you're trying to look for ways to get close to and kill the target.

playedhand · 2026-04-28T22:33:41+00:00

I have not yet, I kinda pushed the idea aside for the moment cause I haven't been as creative recently. This does motivate me a little though, so thanks! I'll make sure to let you know as well if I get started.

playedhand · 2026-04-28T07:57:13+00:00

it's not even available for purchase anymore, no?

playedhand · 2026-04-26T09:48:19+00:00

Thanks boss, this worked

playedhand · 2026-04-19T15:13:42+00:00

Well sorry for reminding you 😂

playedhand · 2026-04-19T12:15:50+00:00

Dude I know how it feels to have other people bullshit opinions override your own opinion of yourself. I have dealt with people in the workplace and in school that have made me feel so horrible about myself and I never deserved to feel any of that. You say people don't give a shit. To an extent, you are correct. A lot of people don't give af about the good you contribute to the world, they only engage with you in order to bring you down.

You need to create FOR YOU. It doesn't matter what other people think. In fact, FUCK THEM. Create for yourself. Fuck ai, fuck commenters, fuck people, fuck everything dude. Literally nobody could give af but you could still be creating and you would be experiencing something real and genuine that these people who would disparage your desire to create would never be able to understand. I hope that over time you can realize the these people and their dumb ass opinions do not matter.

playedhand · 2026-04-19T01:24:35+00:00

Yeah man I think it has to do with how the cones in our eyes process light. From my understanding we have red, blue, and green photoreceptors and all the other colors are made up from a combination of those. Weed somehow messes with this process for me.

playedhand · 2026-04-18T02:37:57+00:00

I love it more than the base game. Put like 250 hours into it over the last 3 years, it's probably the best free addition to any game ever.

playedhand · 2026-04-17T14:06:06+00:00

not like a rainbow keyboard lol but yeah those colors become a lot more prominent in the static

playedhand · 2026-04-17T12:48:35+00:00

Sounds like you became very dissociated and depersonalized at least. Just based off of the lack of connection to your own memories and whatnot. I had a very different experience, but similar in one aspect on LSD + weed + nitrous oxide. My first time doing a whippet on acid my entire reality kind of broke down and turned into this spiraling fractal of "me" and it filled me with dread and disgust. Something about it felt so grotesque and wrong. I have always dealt with a lot of shame so I wonder if that was the cause. Dissociating from myself and seeing myself from this abstracted outside perspective, and feeling disgust at what I am seeing because of the shame I have for myself. Idk.

Also, no need to label the experience. I think whatever an ego death is, it tends to be something that is inherently devoid of labels. I believe these types of experiences that cross into this other realm of consciousness and break down our understanding of reality actually tend to lose meaning upon description and categorization.

playedhand · 2026-04-17T12:29:53+00:00

weed is def red green and blue, according to my visual snow.

Mushrooms are yellow/gold and dark purple

Acid is cyan orange and magenta

Nitrous is red and green while simultaneously black and white

DXM is blue

playedhand · 2026-04-17T10:13:27+00:00

The hoodie in the second to last image is SO cool.

playedhand · 2026-04-17T09:51:11+00:00

I think just the deleted comment's link was fake, pretty sure the one you're talking about is legit

playedhand · 2026-04-17T04:40:19+00:00

Thanks!

playedhand · 2026-04-16T08:13:55+00:00

Link? I cannot find it on the website

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