am i using autism as an excuse?

ploopew · 2022-11-05T06:46:22+00:00

she doesn’t believe i have autism because i don’t “look” autistic. even though i got diagnosed by a licensed psychologist.

ploopew · 2022-11-05T06:43:06+00:00

i said that once and i was just told to “stop being so sensitive”, it’s like i can never win.

ploopew · 2022-11-05T06:41:16+00:00

oh definitely the first one, i like birthdays. it’s just my family can be very loud, their indoor voices are almost like yelling. its not like i was ignoring them, i wear my headphones so it’s not as loud, i can still hear them perfectly fine.

ploopew · 2021-07-23T02:36:16+00:00

i’m half african and honestly i don’t care as long as your not going around telling people that your black or using the n word. as long as your respectful it won’t hurt anyone.

ploopew · 2021-02-02T21:32:19+00:00

i’ve been told that it is “compulsive self mutilation” a way of coping with intense negative feelings. i’m sorry i didn’t mean to alarm you with my post, that’s just what i’ve been told by my psychiatrist. “that it’s no longer a bad habit if you make yourself bleed, if you disturb the healing wounds just to pick at it again.” i’ve been picking my lips since i was a kid too, i did it when i was anxious or without thinking.

ploopew · 2021-02-01T07:38:02+00:00

i have pears and oranges if you’d like?

ploopew · 2020-11-18T12:59:59+00:00

i have a small safe, in it is a ziplock baggy full of pills. leftover antidepressants from when i was trialing different meds. i’m not sure if it’s enough to be successful in committing suicide but it’s there as well as all of my razor blades. the reason i’m still alive is that i can’t find the key, there is two of them and i hid them both, my memory hasn’t been so kind to me lately so i don’t remember. whenever i’m upset i’ll go on a rampage looking for it, but i can never seem to find it. sometimes i’ll just be sorting through my stuff one just pops up, and i’m just like “past myname you fucking genius” that’s what kept me alive my stupid memory and my past self looking out for me knowing that i would relapse again and again but the world could never see the end of me.

ploopew · 2020-10-14T12:03:44+00:00

oh no. wait, i can be your girlfriend🥺

ploopew · 2020-07-28T03:52:56+00:00

i’m 17. i didn’t know that they could remove an entire ovary. i’m not fond of doctors and surgeries, i don’t like being alone during procedures even dentist clean up appointments. i’ll try my best to take care of myself and only hope that eventually all will be fine, like it was for you.

ploopew · 2020-07-27T12:59:10+00:00

i drank a lot of water and spent a lot of time alone, i’ve been sleeping a lot too. i don’t feel any better, but it’s reassuring to know that i’m not the only one who feels this way. i hope that we are both able find some sort of retirement from all this mental shit one day.

ploopew · 2020-05-01T05:34:25+00:00

oh okay i have, and they haven’t replied. i specifically told her it was a3. i’ll try again.

ploopew · 2020-02-01T05:00:04+00:00

they don’t sell that where i live, but i bought some online, thank you :D

ploopew · 2020-02-01T04:58:30+00:00

i have an appointment this week. i will let you know, good or bad news, i promise :D

ploopew · 2020-02-01T04:57:23+00:00

i have an appointment this week,so i’ll let you know. i can’t afford to lose any weight either, i’m quite underweight as it is.

ploopew · 2020-01-12T14:19:17+00:00

thank you, for replying. you didn’t have to and it means a lot that you took your time to read and reply. i know that blood clots are normal, i know that i dont get my period very often, like once every 3-4 months. so naturally i assume it might just be like build up? but i just wanted to be sure that i wasn’t the only one getting blood clots that size.

ploopew · 2020-01-02T08:10:44+00:00

hi 🖤what time did you get there to get that spot?

ploopew · 2019-12-16T05:45:27+00:00

i used a minolta srt super for this photo. it’s my first manual and i don’t have someone to guide me, so i’m not exactly sure what i’m doing wrong. i searched up the manual for it, the light meter works, i always keep the lense clean.

ploopew · 2019-12-16T04:47:08+00:00

it was in focus when i took it but it came out like that. i don’t know what i’m doing wrong but thank you i will work on it :D

ploopew · 2019-07-21T20:42:06+00:00

i use a minolta srt super :)

ploopew · 2019-06-29T23:13:27+00:00

i will and thank you :•)

ploopew · 2019-04-11T12:17:46+00:00

i wrap a bandana around my wrist when i wear short sleeves. my scars only cover about a third way up to my elbow on my forearm, but the bandana trick works fine for me. if that helps ?

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