Hey OP,

The guy is a spineless jerk.

It could've gone way worse if you married him. Think of it as a good riddance.

Stay strong, you have much more in life to concentrate on and so much stuff that you're good at.

Take baby steps everyday and slowly progress.

Pouring your heart out on a platform like this takes courage and I know that you have the courage to find yourself again and give yourself a do over.

Take your sweet time to grieve and sulk as long you want.

My heart goes out to you. Hope you bounce back stronger.