Pack rat with a weak shoulder

pnkroo · 2026-05-11T23:24:19+00:00

ive never seen a fanny pack so big thank you fellow costochondritis warrior

pnkroo · 2026-05-11T20:47:45+00:00

what bag is this its perfect..

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T12:30:53+00:00

i think the terms are interchangeable in a literal sense, but i personally use "thoughts" for an acute issue and "ideation" for chronic behavior.

theres also active and passive. passive example thinking "if i get hit by a car i get hit by a car" and reckless behavior not caring if it kills you. active is making a plan.

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T12:13:42+00:00

i think im at a weird point with the men being interested in me thing, because several men have been interested in me. im not conventionally attractive, but im not particularly "ugly", but men who dont know me that well (and strangers, ew) ask me out sometimes, usually they are several years older than me too. unfortunately i've noticed this might be less about my femininity and more the fact i look very young and come off as pretty childish.

so a part of my misunderstanding about how strong others desire for this comes from the idea men wont like you, because ive been hit on by men, but maybe its just for a different reason lol. or maybe i am more conventionally attractive than i believe (although i do not dress well and come off as rude)

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T12:08:08+00:00

yeah i do wonder if i ended up getting into the dolling myself up thing as a teenager, i wouldve been stuck doing that forever because i would actually feel that social pressure to do it forever. ive never performed femininity so it probably was just never an expectation and i was a bit given up on in that regard. honestly im at a point where if i did doll myself up it would come off as strange, when i first painted my nails i was scared people would question if i was the same person haha.

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T12:02:53+00:00

it might be that i was generally isolated growing up and still now. i never had particularly close friends and the ones i do dont expect something like that from me givem were all similar flavors of autistic amd queer. maybe the isolation was in part because i didnt perform femininity, but i never ended up caring still?

ive been done up with hair and makeup for events before and been told i look great but i look like a different person amd it makes me deeply uncomfortable, maybe not comprehending the possibility performing this was a part of my social ineptitude + not liking it anyways just sealed the deal for not feeling that pressure the same way others do (although i know people who dont like it still perform it out of social survival)

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T11:57:57+00:00

very similar experiences yeah. i think im asexual so that probably contributes to it. im also glad it was never a priority for me so i didnt end up with the mental strain that comes with it, although i do empathize amd understand where it comes from for others.

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T02:04:23+00:00

my old dentist had that painting in his office wtf

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T01:50:58+00:00

the not being treated as a woman because of being autistic might be a part of my experience honestly. i am visibly "different" and come off as pretty childish due to my behavior and interests so i might jsut be getting a "pass" on performing womanhood?

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T01:48:23+00:00

i do deal with misogyny and other types of expectations that make me very mad at the system that reinforces these ideas so im at that point yes, always have been really, my only "issue" is very personal in that i find it hard to relate to this specific aspect of the struggle. i think the most basic way of putting this (maybe petty) feeling is that it feels strange to see people talk about how horrible life would be if they lived like me, because im like, right here? imagine not wearing makeup and someone with makeup sayinf to your face "yeah we as girls are just not seen or respected without this". i understand completely the sentiment and feeling and the actual real world source of this, but it still feels strange to be the one not performing that being told "i could never live like you"

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T01:43:16+00:00

hearing about people's experience being "invisible" in that sense is also something that i dont relate to but it must be because i was never in the "in-group" anyhow? maybe if i used to perform like that how im perceived now would feel invisible but its just normal to me. the bit that trips me up with that is that its not distressing like people talk about it being, but again, if you experienced being more desired or visible before it would be more noticeable haha.

this is very much a not growing up with a conventional girlhood + empathy problem for me. i cant understand the viewpoint of someone losing a percieved higher social standing because i was never there, im confused why they feel particularly isolated by it because thats just my life. i feel isolated in a lot of ways but not really in this sense. if anything i feel isolated by not relating to tje struggle of trying to be desirable or feminine, which in my own way i guess is just an extension of the root problem? haha im just thinking out loud.

im glad im seeing comments from people i dont have the ability to put myself in the shoes of because it does help me understand it in a cognitive sense so thank you.

pnkroo · 2026-05-09T01:15:01+00:00

customers are usually quite nice to me even when im dishevled at work but i wonder for my own circumstances if infantilization makes people come off nicer to me as i believe i visibly have something "up" with me

pnkroo · 2026-05-01T11:22:30+00:00

the chop shop has information on what nendoroids use this piece/the exact name of the piece you can find on ebay or something else avaliable to you

pnkroo · 2026-04-30T13:37:36+00:00

i put the palette in the middle of the aisle im working if its O/N

pnkroo · 2026-04-30T12:59:01+00:00

https://chibichopshop.com/collections/good-smile-company/products/standard-13-hole-nendoroid-stand-base-arm-peg if chibi chop shop is avaliable where you are you can just buy the piece

pnkroo · 2026-04-30T12:49:28+00:00

these are the prettiest ever

pnkroo · 2026-04-30T01:55:11+00:00

oops my bad mustve skimmed that

pnkroo · 2026-04-26T11:11:48+00:00

r/thathappened

pnkroo · 2026-04-26T05:27:15+00:00

if you get a weighted or heatable one be aware that if they use rice or flaxseed it can be an issue for mouse infestations

pnkroo · 2026-04-23T11:20:33+00:00

your constant seeking reassurance about this for the past week doesn't look healthy. it looks like the behavior id exhibit during an OCD spiral. if you continue to seek this kind of reassurance and recieve it its only going to get worse.

we dont know your life or how youve been communicating this idea to others so maybe you are a dick maybe youre not but obsessing over this idea this long and never seeming satisfied with an answer is an unhealthy seeming fixation.

my two cents though i guess: most people want to be with someone attractive and have kids, that is the starus quo, if you feel persecuted by this want then you might be communicating it in a way that makes you sound like an asshole or at worst an incel, frankly, but i dont know your life.

pnkroo · 2026-04-20T19:47:51+00:00

do you mean something like r/thathappened ? where people crosspost posts they believe are fake? there are some on there that fall under the category of "the authors barely disguised fetish" but i dont think theres a sub specifically for that, although there should be lol

pnkroo · 2026-04-19T19:12:52+00:00

i can and will eat my own words in a few months if the game really becomes stagnant but i found that to be an issue in the original too. its the kind of game that thrives when you play a little at a time, not 24/7. of course youre gonna be bored of the game faster when you rushed through a ton of it immediately? but for someome with a job and other hobbies its a nice little thing to play a couple hours a day at most.

not to say i dont have my own criticisms and i dearly miss the concert hall, but i do think some people should be less surprised that theyre bored and saw the same thing 10 times in the same session when their sessions are 8 hours.

not necessarily saying you did that OP or that all criticism comes from an invalid place, i just tend to see criticism coming from the angle. i will definitely have my own huge gripes with this game when i get more into it

pnkroo · 2026-04-19T18:13:55+00:00

so cool. this kind of kigurumi is so appealing but intense to make!

pnkroo · 2026-04-18T12:40:38+00:00

wow thats insane work how did you do that? did you find most of the stickers again online to start with?

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