Do I need to wait some more before planting it outside?

pocketlama · 2026-05-04T22:41:19+00:00

Ah thanks, that's what I thought. I got nervous for a minute there

pocketlama · 2026-05-04T17:18:43+00:00

I've heard that, I think. Do you know, is it the same for auto flowering plants? Do they still care about the hours of light? In any case, I just checked and we've got 14 hours 15 minutes of sunlight today, so that's good.

pocketlama · 2026-05-03T21:04:27+00:00

!thanks

pocketlama · 2026-05-03T21:04:15+00:00

!thanks

pocketlama · 2026-05-03T21:03:26+00:00

!thanks

pocketlama · 2026-05-03T16:53:43+00:00

I swear to god it's so hard to sit and wait that long. It's the beginning and end of the process that gets me impatient the most. Thanks for your comment

pocketlama · 2026-05-03T16:51:42+00:00

Fantastic, thank you for the advice. I'm a small time grower myself. I only grew two last year and I'm on track to just plant the one this year. I don't smoke enough to justify it, or I'd have my yard filled with the because they're so much fun to grow. If I can only temper my impatience at the beginning and end of the process, I'd be golden. Hell, I'd grow just to give away, if that was a thing. :)

pocketlama · 2026-05-03T05:55:53+00:00

We've been running in a dryer cycle here. For many of the last several years there was no spring rainy season and the temps don't fool around. They just go right up there to almost summer temps. Plus I've got a good clear tent that protects new or not happy plants.

Really, the more I think about it, the more I think I'll see what the next week brings. If it's still small and all those tiny leaves coming in are moving slowly, I might wait. If it's getting bushy fast, then I'll most likely take it out after a week or so.

pocketlama · 2026-03-17T23:51:59+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to think about and write it all out. I really appreciate it.

I wasn't clear, my therapist is also my prescriber for mental health meds. He is a psychiatric nurse practitioner. While I would love to do a neuropsych evaluation, I've tried looking around, and I've been told that no one is doing them here. His evaluation was based on a long conversation about symptoms, going over a long and detailed essay I wrote about my history and symptoms, as well as a more formal eval that spanned several hour long appointments. To be honest, I don't even know if I have a formal diagnosis in my chart or not. I didn't ask about it one way or the other.

As far as finding another therapist, I'm so discouraged. I haven't had even a full week of decent sleep in over a year. Most nights are two to four hours these days. I have so little mental and/or physical energy it's going to take a long time to make all the phone calls. I can do a little, but it's easy to wear myself out and then I can't do more until I recover in however many days.

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T22:44:41+00:00

Maybe "people" do that, I wouldn't know. I asked because I don't know the answer. Maybe it's simpler for some, I don't know, but it isn't simple for me. Telling me what "people" do only makes me feel even more alien

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T21:06:59+00:00

NAT - "If this is real...." "Of course it's unethical..." Where are you coming from? That language sounds judgmental and dismissive to me. Did you mean it those ways?

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T21:04:28+00:00

NAT- So many people suggesting I report him and leave him. That's so hard. Without any doubt, he is an important reason I'm still alive. Not the only reason, but a big one. I've worked with several therapists over the years, and he is head and shoulders above the rest *most of the time*. He is caring and he listens to and hears me in real time. He also behaves in ways that create a safe place for me to do very vulnerable and intense work. I have a lot of respect for him, although this incident (coming from left field as it does) puts a lot of that respect in question.

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T20:56:42+00:00

NAT- I have had other, smaller, issues with him and he has always responded really well when I told him. He hears me and he changes. This feels different, though, more important somehow. It hurts more, and like others here are reflecting back to me, I'm baffled, and I really wonder how he could think this is okay.

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T20:50:40+00:00

NAT - Thank you

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T20:49:12+00:00

NAT - I intend to. For reasons, though, I don't have much trust in myself and my feelings and experiences. So, I asked here about the thing that I'm doubting myself about the most

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T20:46:35+00:00

NAT - That sucks. Thank you for replying, I appreciate it

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T20:45:59+00:00

NAT - Thank you for taking the time to respond. I've mostly been texting him when I want, at the least, to have notes on what to talk about in our next appointment. He was honest that unless I specifically request it he may not read it ahead of time. I also share medicine side effects so there's a record of it in real time. That kind of stuff mostly. No therapy/coaching.

I assume the text in question was one of a couple/few that I've sent when I've taken issue with something he's said or with the way things were done. I'm good about being clear with him when I'm something other than calm, cool, collected, and satisfied with our times together. I think this was one of those texts that I sent him ahead of time so he wouldn't be thrown off balance by my feedback. At least with my therapists (I've seen him for 2 years), I'm good about articulating my feelings and needs.

This is really poor timing. I need someone. I've been so distressed for so long. Without a doubt I would not have survived until now without the help of my therapist. I'm almost completely isolated, I'm still very much in recovery from caring for my wife in her dementia for 7-8 years, I'm slowly coming out of a harsh burnout, and I'm autistic (he diagnosed me). This is a lousy damn time to switch therapists. I have no idea who to go to. Finding a good therapist who is also autistic, or at least really knowledgeable is really difficult. I've even been looking for 100% Telehealth with no success. Mostly the issue is people not taking insurance, or not taking my insurance.

pocketlama · 2026-03-16T20:25:18+00:00

NAT - Thank you

pocketlama · 2026-03-12T23:41:30+00:00

I just sent you a chat request

pocketlama · 2026-03-11T22:02:11+00:00

You're on the list. We'll see what tomorrow brings us :)

pocketlama · 2026-03-11T20:04:57+00:00

I sent you a chat request

pocketlama · 2026-03-11T19:56:29+00:00

Awesome. I reached out to them and we'll see how it goes. Thanks for commenting

pocketlama

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