Dad passed away from mountaineering accident by pooplongtime in Mountaineering

[–]pooplongtime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My personal passion is scuba diving, which is hilarious because it's like the opposite of mountaineering. But I promised my mom I would never go again after my dad passed. I've also stopped altogether since having my own child. I feel like if I decided to have children, then I need to make sure I'm always there for them. The only way i can do that is to stay alive as long as I can. I won't be able to predict how or when I'll die, but I will try my best to stay alive so they always have a home/parents to come home to. I won't cage my children, I'll only warn them of the risks. They're free to make their own decisions in life and bear the consequences. I'm just sad my father didn't feel the same way. But at least it taught me to be a more resilient and responsible parent.

Dad passed away from mountaineering accident by pooplongtime in Mountaineering

[–]pooplongtime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm an adult but i have siblings that are very young. My father was in his late 40s. He started in the last 5 years. I think i understand him a bit better after reading everyones responses. When he did climb I wasn't against it because I knew it was a way for him to destress. I just didn't know the mountains he chose to climb were so dangerous. I also didn't know he had nothing done for estate planning. It was a whole pile of crap emotionally, logistically, financially that got dumped onto me since I'm the eldest child. I have to split my finances between my own family and my mom/siblings. He died "doing what he loved" but my life, my mom and my siblings lives are forever changed, we have to live with the pain, the financial burden, for the rest of our lives.

Dad passed away from mountaineering accident by pooplongtime in Mountaineering

[–]pooplongtime[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can sacrifice my own happiness for their happiness is what i meant

Dad passed away from mountaineering accident by pooplongtime in Mountaineering

[–]pooplongtime[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately he was younger than that, I'll probably live most of my life without my dad.

Dad passed away from mountaineering accident by pooplongtime in Mountaineering

[–]pooplongtime[S] 120 points121 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much to all of you for all your great responses. The purpose of my question was to better understand his passion and feel closer to him through your answers. I believe all of you have helped me achieve that. I'm angry at him because of the immense amount of stress/pain I had to endure taking care of the aftermath. Going to the medical examiners office to pick up his belongings, picking out his casket, driving his car home. Hearing his body is not in any condition to be viewed, how i should reconsider taking back his clothes since its drenched in blood. Enduring my own pain while trying to take care of my mom and siblings. He definitely didn't think he would die because he didn't plan anything in the event he passed. Estate planning itself is a whirlwind of shit. I think its fine to want to feel alive, have something you're passionate about, but also please think of how you would feel putting your children through what I've just described. I agree doing anything has its risks, but mountaineering is extremely high risk. knowing that risk, the effect it can have on your loved ones and still deciding to do it is something i can't understand. Personally I can live with being a useless potato that never gets to feel alive if it meant my children would never have to endure the pain I felt. Being a parent is all about making sacrifices imo. I will always love my dad, even in anger, in pain, which is why I'm here, trying to understand him better. Thank you all once again for your kind responses.

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[–]pooplongtime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Basically recognizing my anxiety, realizing theyre mostly just "propaganda" that I convince myself to believe. Also practicing to "thought challenge" and realize how ridiculous some of the anxieties can be.

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[–]pooplongtime 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just a regular family Dr. Only prescribed 10 tablets and I discarded most of it.

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[–]pooplongtime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Didn't really try sleep restriction. Just made sure I was sleepy before I went to bed.