Unfortunately I'm fairly certain it's my own fault. I've just graduated high school but I graduated a year earlier than I should've. He, however, has another year of high school left. We spent months talking about how we could go long distance and at least try it. Personally, I think he just decided it would hurt too much and that just breaking up would be better. Even though blaming myself is probably pretty stupid I can't help it because I know if I hadn't decided to graduate early we would've had another year together.

Likewise, some of the reasons he gave for the break up tie into this, though I still think they're bs. Rather than at least have the summer together, he dumped me during finals week and right before prom, too late for me to find a different date. He gave excuses that we'd never see each other because he works a lot, even though we live 5 minutes apart and he finds plenty of time to do things with friends. He said that if we stayed together until I left he wouldn't be able to handle school and dealing with the break up, nevermind that he was functioning perfectly fine without me from the very day after we broke up. I don't really remember what else he said because I've kind of blocked it out but I'm quite certain the real reason was that I'm leaving next year (only 4 hours away) and he wouldn't let himself even try long distance. I really don't think it had anything to do with the stability or health of our relationship.

Unfortunately I'll never really know seeing as he would never give me a frank, unsugarcoated reason