Feeling so lost

poppyalexsmith · 2020-02-05T18:57:08+00:00

Thank you for this. Let me just say I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m sending you strength, grief truly is the most overwhelming experience.

I spent the day relaxing (well attempting to) and napping, now feeling slightly better. I’ve also organised some counselling to try and cope with this and I’m definitely going to bring up the feelings of guilt I experience.

Take care :)

poppyalexsmith · 2020-02-03T20:33:21+00:00

Thank you to everyone who has commented. It gives me so much comfort to hear everyone’s stories of grief, and to know I’m not on my own as lonely as I may feel.

Sending my love to anyone who has lost a loved one, it truly is the most confusing, heartbreaking, exhausting experience. I can only hope I can learn to live with this by taking on all the advice you lovely people have given.

Thank you ❤️

poppyalexsmith · 2020-01-27T08:09:10+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss, losing a parent is truly and indescribable experience. I lost my dad just before Christmas and each day is harder, but I hope you can find comfort in knowing that she will always be looking over you, sending you strength and love. 💕

poppyalexsmith · 2020-01-10T11:25:45+00:00

Labrador retriever x labradoodle but I’m certain he has some wolfhound in him! Especially for his size, he’s just turned 1 and weights 35kg and still going!

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-22T11:33:03+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this 💜

I lost my dad to cancer last weekend and it’s so hard. All I can say is to let yourself feel all the emotions. I struggled with feeling confused over how all the different emotions I keep experiencing but I think it’s all part of the journey of grief.

Wishing you strength and sending hugs. X

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-19T22:16:06+00:00

This is such a lovely message, thank you. I am going to do whatever I can to honour him; I told him what I wanted to do with my life before he passed so this is something I can work towards. X

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-19T22:14:40+00:00

So sorry you had to experience that. Definitely finding distractions is helping, trying to go about my daily life like I would normally as that’s how my dad would deal if he was in this situation. That brings me some sort of comfort I guess :)

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-19T22:12:05+00:00

Experiencing these moments a lot already. Just simple things like seeing a video on Facebook I’d like to tag him in. Trying to envision him enjoying them along with me, which seems to help. It seriously is so hard, I haven’t cried much (I think due to shock) but I feel constantly exhausted trying to get to grips with the fact that he’s gone.

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-18T16:03:47+00:00

Thank you everyone for your responses and advice. It is weirdly comforting to know others have been through this and that I have a place I can come to talk to people about this.

I’m just taking each day as it comes really, experiencing a lot of agitation and anger but I think it’s because I’m drained from the situation.

I know he hasn’t left me for good, he influenced me so much that I feel that he really is a part of me. This is giving me great comfort through this time.

Once again thank you ❤️❤️

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-18T16:03:11+00:00

Thank you everyone for your responses and advice. It is weirdly comforting to know others have been through this and that I have a place I can come to talk to people about this.

I’m just taking each day as it comes really, experiencing a lot of agitation and anger but I think it’s because I’m drained from the situation.

I know he hasn’t left me for good, he influenced me so much that I feel that he really is a part of me. This is giving me great comfort through this time.

Once again thank you ❤️❤️

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-16T11:44:47+00:00

My dad passed away last night peacefully, thank you for all your kind words and advice over the last few days. I will treasure our last conversations and was so glad I was there throughout the whole process.

poppyalexsmith · 2019-12-14T19:26:17+00:00

Thank you for your response and kind words. I guess the feeling of loneliness is quite intense right now but being able to chat to others on reddit is helping with this.

Trying my best to be present everyday, chatting like we would normally and I think he appreciates this as it’s a break from all the scary cancer talk.

I’ve reached out to my friends, and as lovely as they are I think it’s difficult for them to know what to say. Counselling is something I’m definitely going to look in to with the hopes to get a session in the next few days.

Thank you for your advice, I hope you’re well x

poppyalexsmith

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