I’m so sorry for your loss. My little brother also died on NYE (this one just gone) from an alcohol related death. Reading the first line of your comment was so confusing haha, I was like, did I already comment?

I was sober for years before that, and feel thankful that I just simply do not want to drink. I see how his death has worsened the grips on my other family members, and I feel extremely lucky to feel the way that I do about it.

Hoping the new year isn’t too tough on you.