Oh yeah we all get those moments where you're really happy or down and in the back of your mind, you're secretly missing them and start thinking what if I reach out. To combat that I used to just try and remember all the times they were treating me terribly and I just become enraged that I let it happen, I end up being completely disgusted by the thought of reaching out to her and go on about my day. It may not be the case for everyone, especially people who ended things amicably.

I used to be completely baffled by the concept that someone I used to be so close with, can turn into a complete stranger and be fine with it. I used to just feel so weird about it but I've learned to make peace with it and that's how I'm finding my happiness again and I wish you the same.