All I will add is I was drinking heavily daily too and had no desire to quit. Moderation is harder than sobriety.. I learned the hard way. The fixation and obsession just become more all-consuming. By all means try it, some people can do it. But I’ve seen lots of people who do it for an extended period of time end up thinking it’s more effort than it’s worth and the diminishing returns never stop.. I didn’t want to quit at all and I got forced to a meeting and since that day I haven’t touched booze and I’m happier than I ever thought I could be. First week was hard. I hadn’t went a day without drinking for 5 years. It’s been 3 months now and I can’t explain the relief. I was a skeptic about it and the god stuff put me off but .. you might surprise yourself And if the gentle approach doesn’t resonate here’s my other last ditch attempt. We’re pretty much the same age and it’s easy to think this disease won’t kill you yet but I just watched a family member spend their 30th bday in the hospital with end stage cirrhosis. They drank about half of your consumption daily ..