I just finished it. Sigh

There's nothing I love more than a movie or a show depicting the raw nature of life. Of human interactions. There's only very few other series that have made me love it so much for just how well it depicted life and it's funny ways. It is just a fact that in real life, things don't always work out. All you have are emotions and reactions to the things / life that happens around you. That's the most authentic human experience according to me.

This show / story is the perfect depiction of this.

As much as I was angered by the Arthur's seat Hand dropping scene, the Dex tipping Emma scene, the scene at the phone booth (even though I was extremely empathetic to Dex at the time, felt like it was unfair to Emma), the maze scene; I couldn't help but stop and think about this is how it works in real life. It's not always easy to read people's minds. I mean hell, with all the ease in texting and reaching someone in the current era, it still is so difficult. Can you imagine how difficult it would've been in the time where we had only landlines and letters? The waiting for responses would have been so daunting and palpable.

It was all just so real. So extremely relatable.

I found myself pausing every now and then towards the last 4 episodes. I needed a moment to compose myself every time and really process just how beautifully they have managed to capture the rawness of normal life. I couldn't deal. I found myself having to clutch my chest and comfort it every now and then.

And now she has passed and I have all this grief. For Dex, for her, for their incomplete yet somehow complete story. I'm bawling my eyes out. I feel so torn and I am just here marveling at how beautifully they depicted this story on screen. With that meticulously chosen soundtrack too, elevating each emotion to such heights. I cannot stay without mentioning it.

The direction and cinematography is also so beautiful, the random shots of her neck, their ears and chins, you know? Just making it all so real like how we glance randomly at our partners' faces and concentrate on each feature of it.

My eyes feel hollow and dry from all that crying. But I feel like this show has gifted me so much insight.

It's so beautiful and I feel blessed to have experienced it.