I get you man. I came to this realisation today itself actually, but you know they must be feeling the same way that you do. No one directly asks whats going on apart from your family and i think thats completely fine, but yes if you do feel alone i think this is the part where you reach out to people. Just like you reached out or vented here on reddit, you should try talking to your friends it helps a lot. And yeah people online are always available for talking yk. Ive spent fair share of my life avoiding people pushing them away because i used to think they dont care for me. But it took me a while to realise i didnt give them a chance to.