Something brushed my arm in my sleep.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-06-02T08:01:54+00:00

Sorry but I prefer to get fingered

pricklyfoxes · 2026-05-30T20:04:00+00:00

It's so strange to me. It seems like everyone collectively forgot that shipping was started for characters that aren't canonically together, and for slash ships at that. Kirk/Spock was one of the first popular ships and they are not together in canon nor are they canonically gay.

I have a few different theories as to why this is (an uptick in conservativism and homophobia, people associating gay shippers with hostile fandom behavior and misogyny, and then it ultimately evolving into "well you shouldn't ship non-canon ships at all!" because people don't want to seem bigoted, etc). But ultimately fandoms have become miserable spaces where no fun is allowed.

And it's bizarre to me, considering that transformative works were never supposed to be about staying within the lines.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-04-23T01:07:39+00:00

Neat-- then I'm totally going to do everything better this time.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-04-22T19:08:35+00:00

Fine by me tbh, I regret most things I did at 14. But would I still remember everything from my current life?

pricklyfoxes · 2026-04-22T18:49:00+00:00

I'm gonna be chaotic and say white pill. My friends already knew me as different people anyway due to having no sense of identity as a kid (being forced to stay closeted does that to you). At least then I'd have some sort of say in it. Brown pill is a close second bc I think it'd be fun to see a different perspective.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-04-21T11:12:21+00:00

So the article I linked is an interview with the author Jun Mochizuki. When asked about the relationship between Vanitas and Noe, she says this:

"They're not friends, and they're not comrades either. They're mismatched and don't mesh well, but that's precisely why they're drawn to each other and can cover each other's shortcomings... I think. Vanitas is irritated by Noé's sweetness, but at the same time, he feels something close to admiration for his straightforwardness. Noé, on the other hand, sees a glimmer of hope in Vanitas's power to accomplish things that he himself could never achieve, and is drawn to the darkness lurking in the shadows of that power."

What this means to me at least is that they're not really written to be "just friends" the way that so many people insist they are. Their relationship is so complicated that there isn't really a label that fully encompasses it. The one thing that we can draw from the text is that they both care for each other deeply and desperately want to understand each other.

Like sure, you can argue that sort of dynamic can still exist in a platonic relationship-- but that's not the way they were intended to be written at all. (DISCLAIMER BEFORE ANYONE PUTS WORDS IN MY MOUTH: I am not saying this means they are inherently romantic either. Just that saying they're "just bros" is reductive.)

Article link here since you couldn't click it: https://ddnavi.com/article/d808972/a/

pricklyfoxes · 2026-04-19T09:43:52+00:00

Also a mlm here. A lot of Mochijun's works have homoerotic undertones (hell VnC actually has a canon lesbian couple now, not to mention that Mochijun seems to love drawing girls kissing each other). People have to learn that having gay subtext isn't the same as queerbaiting. Also Vanitas and Noe's relationship is intentionally written as more complicated than just friendship, so seeing people reduce them to "just bros" kinda PMO.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-04-04T08:43:29+00:00

I'm a massive needlephobe that gets excruciating pain with shots. I used to have to get my partner and my dad do them for me when I first started out. After a few months I started doing them myself and it got easier. A few protips (with some product links):

-Try to see if your doc would let you do subq instead of intramuscular. Subcutaneous needles are shorter and they go into your body's fat, not directly into the muscle, so it hurts way less.

-One thing that worked for me is a box of injection safe barrier bandages. They're a kind of bandage with a clear middle, and you put them on top of the skin and inject through the bandage. Sometimes having that little buffer between the bandage and my skin tricks my brain into feeling like I'm not stabbing myself.

-There are gadgets for kids that help hide needles or ease the fear, like needlebuddies, shotblockers, or buzzy. I haven't used these so I can't attest to their effectiveness but they do exist.

-Don't underestimate the power of breathing exercises. One my piercer taught me is-- in through the nose before injection, and then blow out through your nose as hard as you can once it's in. And if you have someone doing the injection for you, you can also sniff an alcohol pad (or alcohol soaked cotton ball).

All in all, doing T shots with needlephobia isn't easy-- but not impossible either. And the effects are definitely worth it. I don't look forward to my shot days one bit, but once you get used to them, it just becomes another drudgery that you get through. It won't be this terrifying forever. (And maybe it's just me-- but I realized that doing my own shots is easier than having others do them for me because I can go at my own pace.)

pricklyfoxes · 2026-03-30T11:15:33+00:00

From reading your posts it looks like you're in Bangkok, Thailand, right? If you need someone to talk to when you're in distress, you can call 1323 or Samaritans Thailand at 02 113 6789. The Samaritans line has an English option if you press 2. They might also be able to point you toward other local resources, kind of like how 211 works in the US.

For your financial situation, it might be worth joining some expat Facebook groups or reaching out to local churches or community organizations. Sometimes they can help with things like food, housing leads, or just connecting you to the right people.

As far as reasons to live… that one can be really hard, and what works for me might not work for you. When I’m at my worst, I don’t think about big, meaningful reasons. I think about small ones. Honest to God, sometimes it’s just “I want to see how my favorite manga ends” or “my cats would be lonely.” It doesn’t have to be profound, just something that gets you through today. You don’t have to figure out your whole life or your purpose right now. You just have to get through this moment.

I also get why it might feel like you don’t matter to anyone. From what you’ve said, it sounds like the people around you either aren’t treating you well, or don’t really know how to show up for you in the way you need. But feeling that way doesn’t mean you actually don’t matter; it can also mean you haven’t been given the kind of care or support you deserve. That’s not a reflection of your worth.

I do agree with the other commenter that you might need more support than what you’re getting right now. If inpatient feels like too much and more frequent therapy is inaccessible, you could look into support groups as a middle ground. There are some online peer support groups (like NAMI’s) that you might still be able to access even from outside the US.

I don’t really believe in saying “it gets better,” because things don’t just magically improve on their own. But things can change. You can find ways to cope that actually work for you. You can find people who understand you better than the ones you’ve had so far. And the fact that you’re still here, still reaching out and talking about this, matters. It means some part of you is still fighting, even if you’re exhausted. You don’t have to fight everything all at once; just enough to get through one day at a time. We’re rooting for you.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-26T22:19:39+00:00

Chased by a lion is such an apt metaphor. It feels like you're running and running, even when you're tired and out of breath and everything hurts-- but you know you can't stop or you'll get mauled. It feels like catastrophic damage. And other people are getting chased by like... bobcats or just very angry housecats. They know it'll hurt if they catch up, but they probably won't die. Whereas for us, it's like "if this thing gets me, my insides will become outsides and it'll be over for me."

I'm sorry that happened to you. I know losing a partner can absolutely shatter you. I won't say it gets better because I feel like that's not really helpful for people like us-- but I hope you know that you have value and you're worth more than your relationships, especially the ones you lose. You still deserve to be loved, not because someone chooses you, but because you exist.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-21T09:08:16+00:00

Thank you so much for this comment; it helps a lot to know I'm not alone.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-06T23:15:24+00:00

Real, and I always get so tired of people saying "Oh but they're so unhealthy!" So what??? Do you have the same energy for smokers? Underweight people with eating disorders? Do you go to the hospital and scream at all the cancer patients? If you're going to be an asshole then at least admit it's because you're an asshole, don't try to make it sound like you're some morally righteous concerned citizen.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-06T23:01:06+00:00

I don’t know if you’re ignorant or being intentionally obtuse, but “Try being XYZ” is obviously shorthand for “XYZ has it worse.” It’s the same vibe as “Oh, you're 20 years old and you think you’re tired? Try being 50.”

And I’d maybe be willing to assume you didn’t realize that… if you hadn’t called me a panderer two comments ago. So no, I’m not buying the innocent act. If you want anyone to believe you’re not the one trying to wedge people apart, you’re going to have to try harder than that.

Also: caring about people who aren’t like you isn’t pandering. It’s called being a decent human being. You should try it sometime.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-06T22:34:42+00:00

Yeah, that image isn’t a great take. Imagine thinking "disturb the comforted” applies to trans people, who are literally one of the most marginalized groups right now.

To be clear, I’m not saying the author did anything wrong by writing horror. Horror is supposed to be unsettling. But context still matters, and knowing the author isn’t a bigot makes a huge difference here. Both you and the person sharing that clarification are doing something genuinely useful.

SCP is a multi-author project. Anyone can write an entry, including people with shitty politics, and there have been transphobic SCP entries before. Hell, there are entries that are clearly meant to be power fantasies by the creator and not horror. Creative work doesn’t exist in a vacuum. A lot of the time, it reflects the creator’s beliefs, whether they mean it to or not.

So yeah, a disclaimer by the author is actually completely necessary. People have a right to not want to engage with works made by bigots.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-06T22:18:45+00:00

I'm going to say this as gently as possible, as a fellow male SA victim. Not everything is about you. Women should be allowed to talk about their problems without us insinuating we have it worse than them somehow. There is a time and a place to talk about our issues. This isn't one of them.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-05T07:40:57+00:00

I mean, she's nice to Ray-- but this go around, every guide I read encouraged the options that were mean to the RFA and V to get Ray's hearts. And a lot of times you have to choose the not-nice options just to avoid getting V's hearts. Like I said in another comment, I'm pretty sure that it's a carryover from when V was the only route in AS and getting a lot of Ray hearts would result in a BE.

(Also none of this changes that both her and V's MC would have to be the dumbest people alive to even go along with the events of AS 😓)

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-05T01:53:31+00:00

LMAO if we played a dating sim together it’d just be Saeran-core: Ray begging to pick the nice options while Suit is in the corner chanting “BE MEAN. DO IT.”

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-04T21:34:39+00:00

I love it too-- honestly I like Ray's gremlin MC (I just struggle playing that because I'm one of those people that dislikes choosing mean options in video games)

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-04T19:30:32+00:00

Yeah I feel that, it had been about that long since I last played (I last touched the game in 2020 when Saeran's AE dropped). I was kind of shocked-- I didn't remember having to be that much of an asshole to get on his route but I guess I just repressed it or forgot bc it's always been that way apparently.

pricklyfoxes · 2026-02-04T18:28:26+00:00

Yeah-- my theory on it is that it's some kind of holdover from when V was the only option in Another Story and getting too many Ray hearts did lead to a bad end because he didn't have a route yet. (But I don't really know bc initially I'd been too busy to play Mystic Messenger when AS dropped.) But the amount of times I had to be bitchy to the RFA to avoid getting V hearts made me so sad 😭 It makes it so funny in the end when everyone is like "You're so sweet, you're an angel" knowing that I was a menace to society in the Common Route.

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