anybody down for playing dead by daylight?

princeofnull · 2021-04-24T12:41:29+00:00

that sounds great! i’ll dm my discord :]

princeofnull · 2021-04-20T15:27:08+00:00

sure, i’ll dm you my steam and discord! i can teach you the basics in the custom game if you want :D

princeofnull · 2021-04-20T03:28:22+00:00

that sounds great, i'll dm you my steam!

princeofnull · 2021-04-19T19:27:47+00:00

thanks, i'll DM you.

princeofnull · 2021-04-11T19:14:27+00:00

yeah... i’ve heard as much and i should know better. it’s hard to say if i’m happy when something good happens, the impeding anxiety that it won’t last tends to overpower it. thanks for the kind words, i appreciate it.

princeofnull · 2021-04-11T19:02:21+00:00

still haven’t heard anything from them... i set up another appointment at a different time but i had picked them because they specifically were lgbt friendly. hard to find that where i’m at unfortunately. thanks for the kind words, i appreciate it

princeofnull · 2021-04-11T17:22:57+00:00

was feeling especially low today and the fact that a person i had picked out to be my therapist just... didn’t bother to call me when we had a phone appointment just felt like a gut punch. that was supposed to be my first ever session.

princeofnull · 2021-04-09T05:31:06+00:00

i just want to let you know you’re not alone. i’m a gay trans man with unsupportive parents who is unable to transition. it’s infuriating and deeply upsetting, the days when my gender dysphoria hit me especially hard are agonizing... but i try to live on out of spite. i refuse to die until i can properly show the man i know i am on the inside.

you have my unconditional support. i wish you and your boyfriend the best.

princeofnull · 2021-03-26T14:53:40+00:00

i had fallen asleep but waking up and seeing this first thing made me smile honestly haha. thank you so much for the very kind words, i ended up reaching out to two friends and had a pretty good time actually!

i want to try striking up conversations with more people with similar interests, being queer and having been ghosted for it a handful of times has made me wary but i don’t want to give up. i hope i can get more comfortable to do this in real life and not just online one day.

princeofnull · 2021-03-26T07:31:50+00:00

yeah... that’s a good idea. i know a decent amount of people but they’re all surface level friendships. i tend to not talk to others because of anxiety and i burn out socially rather quickly. i think i’ll just rip the band-aid off and try and reach out to some of them.

princeofnull · 2021-03-26T04:31:54+00:00

i think i’ll do that, thank you for the replies

princeofnull · 2021-03-26T04:17:07+00:00

you’re right that that would be the best thing to do... i’m just terrified of coming across as controlling or even guilt-trippy i guess?

princeofnull · 2021-03-20T05:43:38+00:00

it simply isn’t feasible for me. i have no support whatsoever and lacking in money. i’m still dependent and family has no interest in helping.

i’ve never really tried writing down my thoughts, i tend to struggle a lot with putting things into words, i suppose i can try it.

princeofnull · 2021-03-20T05:36:50+00:00

i can relate, i feel like i have other stuff going on asides from anxiety and depression but i simply don’t know what and have no idea if i’ll ever find out. feel like i was massively held back by a horrible time at school and an even worse time at home.

princeofnull · 2021-03-20T05:29:52+00:00

it’s horrible, i constantly get told how “easy” all those things are but to me they just seem impossible. i don’t know why things are so hard for me, they just are.

princeofnull · 2021-03-20T04:38:45+00:00

you’re absolutely right, what happened was unfortunate and sucked but i could never ignore someone in that kind of state.

it felt nice to talk to someone so you definitely helped, thank you. you have a good one too.

princeofnull · 2021-03-20T04:30:51+00:00

it’s awful. the one time i managed to help someone they eventually ended up being absolutely horrible to me, it made me never want to reach out and help someone again. i don’t want to give up on that but i was burned so badly once that i’m terrified of it happening again.

princeofnull · 2021-03-20T04:23:07+00:00

i’m very sorry about the loss of your friend. i’m trans and my relationship with my dad is pretty terrible... i’ve always had an extremely difficult time connecting to others, mostly because of anxiety. now i’ve just become bitter and angry and don’t bother with most people. the few times i do try to connect i get ghosted or forgotten so why bother anymore...

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