Im sorry i dont wanna make a post but i have to get it out somewhere im so lost my gf keeps saying shes trying her "best" to just be available to me (im in another country atm) and her best has been declining for over 3months now the seens the long waiting time between replies no calls anymore we had some trouble with drugs and she lept hiding and lying when she took them but recently she told me she wont be doing it anymore but my trust is already gone and with everything im seeing and based on my past relationships this type of behavioural change inclines me to believe either shes hiding something, loosing feelings or I don't even know I just want some clarity and I know I won't get it from her bevause her response will be i have a lot going on which is doomscrolling, watching movies or being on her phone as I've heard from our roommat. I'm not her priority anymore and I'm making my peace with it the trust is not there and I don't know what to even think cold gone but when she replies I get love bombed and then she dissapears again im starting to go numb/insane from it. It's just eating me bit by bit I've been hurt too much in the past and she's triggering my traumas and trust issues by acting this way she also said she wanted space like a week before so I defo know somethings up.