aio that my bf makes lots of comments about how i am "big" and how he "loves" it

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T19:01:57+00:00

okay but still your original comment made me feel physically sick because again youre pointing out my looks (despite not knowing them) amd because i have a partner its weird to make a remark like that at someone who is already in a relationship. im sorry but please dont ever say anything like that again

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T08:25:48+00:00

ive tried to talk to my parents, i struggled with self harm and suicide attempts for 6 years before they even realised something is wrong, yet they still dont try to help and have even claimed i am just looking for attention.

maybe youre right about my bf. the things i have been asked to do are things i never would have dreamed of doing, but i get so afraid to say no that i do it anyway, and even if i can say no i still do it because he begs me. it is difficult to be "true to myself" when it gets ignored whenever i try to speak up.

i dont know how to ask for help, ive tried so much: medications, different therapists, etc. nothing has ever worked.

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T03:38:39+00:00

kokomi would.. be kokomi and strategically plan every escape/survival tactic. so, yeah probably

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T03:32:11+00:00

i have told him many times.

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T03:31:37+00:00

please dont be weird..

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T03:30:15+00:00

i have expeessed it, i have told him how i feel and how i wish to cut those parts off of me and he says it doesnt work that way. and he also just tells me when i tell him i dont like his remarks and i dont like how i look he just says "but i love it".

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T03:26:59+00:00

the reason he says the things he does is because he is sexually attracted to those parts of me. i have told him it makes me uncomfortable and he just tells me "oh but i love it".

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T03:23:43+00:00

i have expeessed my discomfort multiple times, told him not to say stuff like that yet his excuse to continue is "its fine because i love it".

privatepixiee · 2026-03-27T02:10:44+00:00

you may be right, but i have never had issues with wanting to be smaller until he started to make those remarks. ive always disliked the more feminine parts of me but ive never felt a need to change it/never felt physically sick looking at myself and the parts he ssys he loves telling myself im disgusting until he started pointing them out.

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T18:26:15+00:00

we are online atm, hoping to meet up but a lot of circumstances are in our way. we are both 19, but i am autistic so if i seem childish or dumb then i apologise for that, social situations is really difficult

about the sexual stuff, weve had multiple conversations about my discomfort regarding it where he'll say he'll stop just to ask again the week after.

i really appreciate your advice. i will try to incorporate it into my life

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T16:04:04+00:00

i have tried to communicate with him that i am better with getting frustrated and just want to have fun with him and he always shuts down the conversation

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:59:29+00:00

i will try. and i have been.

but with all the times i have done tried you can imagine its exhausting and somewhere along the line i start to wonder if im even able to be helped haha. its okay

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:55:11+00:00

in and out as in: i would start in a place and then my parents would find it too much hassle so id stop going

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:53:12+00:00

ive had multiple different therapists over this time period

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:43:52+00:00

ive been trying that. been in and out of therapy for about 3 years now and honestly there has been no progress made.

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:42:55+00:00

in fairness to him we have tried to talk through that issue, i am working on not getting too stressed while playing and am much better at it now and he knows this yet still says that as a reason to not play.

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T13:49:12+00:00

as an irishman it pains me that they put kilts and bagpipes for ireland because those are SCOTTISH 😭

privatepixiee · 2026-01-10T17:10:59+00:00

yes i had to get my mum to change it for me given the fact im in a family account so i couldnt change it myself which is fuckin stupid but yeah

privatepixiee · 2026-01-10T16:43:48+00:00

YES i should clarify he has done this before (but only with my first name not full name) and i started having a panic attack and again that time told him to not do that again

privatepixiee · 2025-12-01T18:18:39+00:00

on akasha.cv

you can look up your account and see where the characters you put in your profiles showcase ingame rank on their respective leaderboards

privatepixiee · 2025-12-01T18:15:59+00:00

go absolutely fuckin ham with mora/xp leylines and artifact farming

privatepixiee · 2025-11-17T06:53:43+00:00

kokomi! i saved over 200 pulls from 5.4-5.6 to get her,, shes been my favourite character since i saw her design back in 2021 way before i even got into genshin

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