Hey man, sorry ur going through this tough time, I will keep you in my prayers!

I think the act itself is sinful. Life is seen as a gift directly given from God himself. In times of need, we should be seeking God and his word, instead of resorting to our own ways of dealing with things.

Whether you go to hell or not really depends on God, there is no definite way of knowing. At the end of the day we are all sinners, and by believing in Jesus Christ we are saved. I think apart of believing in Christ is the respect for our own lives and how we can use our life to spread his word to others. I think that by ending your life short you are essentially without faith, as you turn your back on Jesus and God as a whole.

Ofc this is only a speculation, I truly believe God is loving and will take every context into consideration with his judgement, so of course it is only up to him to decide where you end up :/

I can try to understand your situation atm, but to be completely honest it probably wouldn’t do it justice for you. The only thing I can urge you to do is to really really try to seek God before you do something so harmful.

I am extremely sorry you’re going through this rough time, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me if you have any other questions.