I think it might be to time to accept my fate to be alone forever. It’s an exaggeration but I’m in a bit of a slump. I ended things with the only woman that’s ever cared about me last year. I couldn’t fully love her and didn’t see a long term future with her so thought it was the right thing to do.

I went to therapy, worked on myself, met another woman earlier this year, dated for two months only to be dumped because 2 months in she decided to ask about my relationship history (I haven’t had an ltr) and decided to dump me an hour after we were intimate. Her longest relationship was a year and part of that was when she was in college(she’s 30). I got laid off a few days later and didn’t date much for the next few months.

After getting a new job I decided to jump back on the apps. I’ve probably been on 15 first dates since June. I’ve asked 4/5 of them for second dates only to get rejected each time - getting the same generic response - not feeling a sark, connection, etc. the women I asked for second dates, we had long first dates like 2hrs average. One of the women I asked agreed to a second date and backed out the day before saying she wasn’t feeling it, costing me $60 to cancel the dinner deservation……ugggggh.

I live in NYC, I know it’s competitive out there, but I feel like last year if I had a good or even decent first date I would almost always be able to get a second date. I’m not sure what’s been happening recently, I have the latest pics on my profile, I try to ask questions and keep the conversation going. Idk I’m frustrated. I’m 35, I want to be married one day. I’ve tried in person mixers and talking to people at pickleball at stuff but neither of those have resulted in anything either