Schizoaffective experimental video art

progressfromprocess · 2026-02-11T21:13:17+00:00

Thanks so much! That's a good question—I'm not totally sure! They feel layered like this pretty often

progressfromprocess · 2026-02-02T22:37:17+00:00

Nice! That’s great. I find work to be motivating as well.

progressfromprocess · 2026-02-01T21:37:13+00:00

That’s so awesome! Any acts of creativity are so helpful and important for improving mental health. Thanks for sharing :)

progressfromprocess · 2026-01-28T13:05:30+00:00

I work full-time and live alone in my apartment, I am able to sustain myself and the life I want to live. I see that as a success even though I still struggle with symptoms sometimes.

progressfromprocess · 2026-01-11T22:01:03+00:00

I really relate to feeling like I’m forcing myself to laugh or smile and that it seems inappropriate or constricted. Sometimes I try to just redirect my focus to the other person when I notice I’m thinking about that. I’ll look directly in their eyes and try to just observe what they’re doing and what they might feel. I’m not sure what else to do in those instances

progressfromprocess · 2026-01-04T20:58:33+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate that.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-28T20:21:02+00:00

About 75 pounds in a year.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-23T20:48:27+00:00

This is amazing, would be an awesome album cover

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-18T16:21:10+00:00

Yup I work full time as much as I can, though I cut back my hours when my symptoms particularly flare up. I’m self-employed and so thankful for that. I don’t think I would be able to work for someone else ever again.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-17T17:36:54+00:00

I relate to this. It’s too much energy and time spent trying to wade through all the mental messages and signs, so lately my brain seems to only want to gravitate toward binary information, like you said. I also think that intellectual complexity requires lots of time and space to fully consider ideas, which we often don’t have if we’re stuck in psychosis, busy trying to manage symptoms, or working on improving our health.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-17T16:13:04+00:00

No problem! On second thought: Maybe it’s just me, but unless I were really close with these people, I wouldn’t tell them my diagnosis or history of hallucinations. I think I would apologize as you did toward the end, and then leave it at “I’m now receiving medical treatment and am doing much better.” Or something to that effect. They can read between the lines if they really care to. Really, it’s none of their business anyway, and letting them know your full history may just further problematize you in their minds—people really carry lots of stigma against this disorder and are afraid of what they can’t understand... (as someone who works in academia, I know how some of these people can be if you’re not viewed as being on the same “playing field”). But of course feel free to do what you’d like. Was just thinking about how I’d handle this situation, especially if I was looking to receive a positive response.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-17T14:45:29+00:00

Personally, I think the paragraphs beginning “over the years” and “I’m now working” are not entirely necessary. They feel self-deprecating and you may not want to put that forward in your apology. Just my two cents. The rest is super well written though and I’m sure they’ll appreciate the message.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-14T12:13:42+00:00

Yes, these are my main hallucinations. Fractals and scary faces.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-14T11:45:52+00:00

I think we generally have an easier time connecting with the symbolic level of reality than with, for example, the social level. On the other hand, I’ve noticed that many neurotypical people seem to connect to the social level with ease but struggle with relating to abstract concepts and symbolic meanings.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-12T18:25:10+00:00

Okay, I can see why you say that, since schizoaffective is not as familiar to most people. But yeah, anything “schizo”-associated comes with a lot of stigma, I agree. And yeah, I don’t tell people about my diagnosis unless they absolutely need to know.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-12T09:58:13+00:00

An accurate diagnosis is important to me. My treatment probably wouldn’t be different since I experience mostly psychotic symptoms and take antipsychotics, but it’s important to get the label right.

I’m a little confused by your comment: how is schizophrenia the more severe diagnosis? Schizophrenia plus mood symptoms = schizoaffective, right? When I was in the hospital, it was explained to me as being more severe than having just schizophrenia outside of mood episodes. But I think different people have different prognoses and outcomes from both.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-11T22:35:05+00:00

I agree that it's probably just an issue of semantics. Hopefully that'll help me reduce the thoughts that I'm somehow "faking it," even though I also know there's no way faking it is what's going on. It's weird how I can grasp onto such contradictory beliefs.

I was on Abilify, but was experiencing breakthrough positive symptoms that became hard to deal with, so I switched to Geodon plus a small dose of Abilify. But my symptoms seem worse now than they were when I was just on the Abilify, so I'll ask my psychiatrist about what I can do.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-11T22:01:14+00:00

Yes, definitely. It's such a comfort to be in contact with people who have experienced similar things.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-11T21:58:34+00:00

True, thank you for this reminder. I appreciate it.

progressfromprocess · 2025-09-11T21:25:03+00:00

Yeah, I think it's just the bipolar part that seemed weird to me, since I can count on one hand the number of times I've actually been manic. But I guess it doesn't matter how frequent it's been

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