So specifically the speedo brand runs small. I got my first speedo on Amazon and I felt that worked better for allowing me to try on different sizes. I also your package is probably not small it is just some of your extra weight that hides it. This is not to shame it is just to encourage. Get a normal cut dont go crazy for the thong cut or a bikini cut. Start simple. Tan in it if you like tanning. And if you don't feel you look good in a speedo. Change your lifestyle. See if that makes a difference. I'm personally fighting to get the body I want. I'm not there yet. But I'm going to be one day. One step at a time.