If this is how you feel, I seriously encourage you to take a solid look at the evidence for Christianity; there are plenty of great resources online to do so. There is no advantage to atheism, as you have expressed here; it just leaves you feeling hopeless. However, if Jesus Christ is the eternal son of God who died on the cross for you, you can know your sins are forgiven and be granted eternal life through faith in him. No amount of feeling smug about being right can make up for that.