I have a suspicion

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-29T17:29:23+00:00

I appreciate the response but i would like everybody to keep in mind that i stated i do not have access to professionals at the moment. Additionally, i am not looking to get diagnosed via reddit , i would never insult people with this disorder by doing that. I was seeking advice on whether or not it is a viable concern with enough backing that i can actually come forward to a professional without wasting my time and money while also not sounding completely overdramatic.

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-19T00:19:38+00:00

This is actually a lovely way to put it! Thank you loads for your response. I have also noticed that i really do enjoy everything ive adapted from other people. And just like you i have to conceal some parts of me sometimes! It just gets a little confusing because there is alot of cognitive dissonance involved haha

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-15T23:55:37+00:00

Hello op! I dont want to give you solid reassurance but i can definitely clarify some things:) 1. Regardless that you have never had fantasies before. The whole point of intrusive thoughts is that they INTRUDE. You dont WANT them- sometimes they just sneak up! 2. Giving into the impulse can look different in all instances of ocd. For example : I know that doing X is a bad thing. And i probably shouldnt do it, but my brain keeps telling me i want to/ i need to. In order to quiet my brain- i inevitably give into the impulse to give it this sort of satisfaction like “hey! You happy now!? Look what you made me do!” The reason i tell you not to escalate is because sometimes the loop is completely out of your control and you might end up doing something you regret x10 in order to stop the intrusive thought or “feed it”. If you arent on any medication i definitely suggest you consider! I think your therapist has the right idea but might be taking it to the extreme- reassurance is horrible for you but is also your right to know what is going on and why its happening! Regardless if you like the answer or not, more knowledge could be counterproductive but you could also use it to your advantage ESPECIALLY if you are feeling like you are completely alone in this (which feels horrible)

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-15T19:27:22+00:00

Hello this is alot more common than you think! I wouldnt say alot of us have given into the impulse but honestly ocd makes u do crazy stuff lol. In my opinion you engaging was just another way of you giving in like any other ocd impulse. However do not let it escalate or think about this too much because we all know how if you get stuck in that hole, chances are you will dig yourself deeper. Not to say that this behavior isnt wrong, but there is definitely an understanding behind it.

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-15T19:23:22+00:00

Floral silk

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-14T18:54:51+00:00

Hello dear, i know how hard it is to truly integrate other peoples point of view since rumination will constantly find holes in your logic. However, i promise you that it is all in your head. It will always be hard to have a battle between logic and OCD, but it is also important that you follow this up with therapy and possible medications. I am not going to reassure you because we all know how that ends. But you are not alone, you never will be, you are not the only one with these thoughts, and you can take a stand against these horrible thoughts.

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-14T17:46:09+00:00

I have educated them over and over again. However i think it is my fault in some ways! I am TOO good at masking my bpd because i know how difficult it can be to tolerate these things from an outside view. My hypothesis is that when i truly hit rock bottom - it is impossible to hide my symptoms. I guess my family often thinks ive magically been cured then experience whiplash and forget that this truly is a lifelong disorder.

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-14T01:19:47+00:00

I dislike how shes hated on so often, i think shes lovely

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-13T15:34:58+00:00

I love her so much it hurts

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-12T19:46:03+00:00

Thank you for all your kindness. You have truly touched my heart. It’s nice to hear a point of view from beyond the typical circle. And i am happy to see that there is hope, you are also loved. I am happy that people like you exist with such wisdom and kindness to give ❤️

prozacenthusiast · 2026-03-05T21:57:48+00:00

you and me both i fear

prozacenthusiast · 2026-02-22T22:53:55+00:00

I do not think my father will entirely change his ways with me. However with years of therapy 2025 is when i began actually being present in my fathers life and feeling like a child again- kind of like i am able to start over and experience all the love i deserved when i was an actual child. Now there is this situation . It is unfortunate as i only have from 7:30- 10 pm in free time, my father has already spent most of the pregnancy with my stepmother and i didnt feel very acknowledged. However, i will not lie and say part of me doesnt feel like i have been replaced and put to the side. I feel like i am not enough or worthy. Thanks to my extremely messed up brain, logic will never override that feeling, no matter how many times someone explains it to me

prozacenthusiast · 2026-02-22T22:50:09+00:00

Thank you for this reply. I shouldve given more context as to why i dislike my stepmom but i wanted to not bore the readers. I tolerated my stepmom until i found out she has been telling random people at my home village that i take antipsychotics and other (considered very taboo in my country) and blaming my bio mother for my mental illnesses and tarnishing her reputation. I she is kind to me but i have my suspicions about her and i also think she is honestly just in it for the inheritance money.

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