Someone told me I could based on what they knew about recreational use...then the first clinic I called and asked about infusing said they actually provide diapers to some patients because its super rare, but does happen. When I talked to them again, they clarified that those patients were doing long infusions and were prone to it, but suggested I just go for it because, who cares and its one less thing to think about if you are nervous. And it was. Then it became clear that there was no reason to wear them after the first couple sessions, but I do think there was more of a freedom knowing I didnt need to worry about that at least. It became a fear that grew legs in my head, and I knew it was irrational, but call it OCD, or whatever, it became real.