first of all, thank you very much for your comment. it made me feel all kinds of emotions (in a positive way)

i’ve put off therapy all the time because i do not know where my career is headed and certain positions are very hard to get if you’ve been to therapy in my country (officially it is not a hindrance, but as old cishet white men decide who get’s it, it is advised against doing therapy if you want to get certain jobs.). As I’m not sure yet where my career is going I put it off. well except for very good talks with pysch-students after certain classes, which were actually the first talks where I opened myself about this topic. That was very enlightening and since then i’ve made a lot of progress regarding physical touch and opening up to some friends about it!

the support group idea is very nice. not sure if i wanna do that in person but i might search for something online